http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/

visit this blog..
she is the girlfriend of the pilot who died in Brunei training.

suddenly her blog make it think of you.
but i'm more fortunate than her.
the person i love is still alive but her's..
is gone..

i read her entries yesterday night..
is very sad.
especially when she said 4 more days to see her boyfriend.
but then next day..
.... ....
the 4 days never come..
he is never back..

her hopeless feeling i understand..
but she felt more than me..
i lost you but she lost him forever..

suddenly.
i feel like hugging you.
i wanna feel the feeling of you hugging mi.
i wanna feel so secure in your arms.
i wanna feel you.

but i admire her strongest.
i know is tough coping with that.
i know the mental break down that she might go through
i know her feeling and need for being strong to others..
but we still feel the pain..

she made mi wanna tears but i know i must hold it back too.
moving on.. is the word that everyone says to us..
but moving on.. ....

i have mixed feeling.
i'm telling myself what i should do and what i shouldn't do
what i should think of and what i should not think of.
but
the heart and the mind never work together..

graduation is in 2 weeks time..
is it a go or is it a miss?
i dunno..
will you appear or will you not appear
should i look forward to see you or should i not
at tis point of time.. i just hope that you are by my side.
but..
you are still someone's.
and i know you will never be mine..



ok.. enough le.. go sleep ba.. shouldnt think anymore..