rOt aT hOmE..

hmm.. wake up at 1pm todae.. hahax.. first time sia.. i haben been slping till so late le.. for tis sem.. i haf been like waking up in the morning.. then travel down to sch.. there is like hardly a dae where i can slp till so late lorz.. hahax.. and.. i am tired le lahz.. realli tired of the travelling time.. i oso tired of life now.. actually todae is suppose to meet chunpei they all for movie de.. but then i nv go lahz.. partly is bcoz i no money le.. then the other reason is i kind of tired lorz.. then dun feel like going out lahz.. so i rot at home todae lorz.. =) although is quite sian but then i think i got enough rest le.. for tis sem i haf been like going home late then slp at late nite.. then wake up early in the morning.. alwayz feel very slpy in class.. like wat ting sae.. i muz let myself rest lorz.. but then i noe myself lahz.. i cannot let myself rest alot de.. once i got time to rest or feel very bored.. i will think of stuff.. hahax.. then will turn moody le.. so better keep myself busy although will feel tired lahz.. ppl may be wondering y i so active in sp ba.. hahax.. the main reason is i cant let myself rest lorz.. i got too much things in my mind le.. so keeping myself busy will let mi not haf time to think..
haiz.. i think alot todae.. hahax.. wanted to cry but i nv.. ^_^ i getting stronger each dae le.. hahax.. i think of the dae mi n him haf lorz.. then think abt now the relationship i haf with him.. haiz.. make mi very sad lorz.. so happen that yesterdae mi,shuting and johnson was chatting.. then johnson sae abt his love life thingy.. then make mi think abt it oso.. haiz.. then todae i realli wanna sms him de.. but i yesterdae already tell shuting n johnson that i wun msg him for the time being lorz.. i dun wanna trouble him.. if we realli cant be frenz le.. then i cant blame lorz.. is fate.. everything leave it to fate.. haiz.. sad arhz.. haiz.. if he dun even treat mi as fren le.. wat for still go find him n disturb him.. let him be wat he is n i be wat m i.. mayb 1 day he ill find out.. actually during tis period of time.. i haf been liking him alot.. love cant be force.. tis.. everyone haf to believe bahz.. i will still carry on with my life.. without him.. maybe i can get stronger.. i muz learn how to handle stuff myself.. i did write letter for him.. but in the end i nv gif it to him.. i dun haf the courage to do so.. but after writing it even nv gif it to him.. i feel better.. coz i write out wat i feel.. so everything wun be inside mi.. there is too much things in my mind now.. but i juz dun wanna let myself haf time to think abt it.. so i muz study,play netball or invlove in club events so i wun be free to think.. when i think is the right time then mayb i shall tell him my feeling ba.. but now isn't the time.. so ppl.. let enjoy life k.. ahax.. muz study hard le.. life still go on.. and exam is coming le.. muz jiayou le.. for those that exams is coming.. jiayou k.. =)