m|dNite 3.03am.. hMmm..

haiz.. read johnson 2nd blog todae.. haiz.. like wat he sae.. every1 wanna haf their soulmate.. 1 or juz 2 frenz tt can tok to n go out wif.. haiz.. thinking of tt.. i think i oso like tt ba.. i seldom will call ppl to go out unless got ppl ask mi out.. i oso dunno y.. juz like wat i haf told johnson.. it takes time for us to find tt particular one to share all our happiness n sadness together.. hiding thing is realli very xin ku.. especially hiding feeling n all the problems tt we face.. sometime the load is realli too heavy le.. heavy till that i think 1 day i will juz collapse.. haiz.. in the middle of the nite.. feeling the pain in my heart.. things are bothering mi.. but i choose not to share.. wanting to hide everything within mi.. realli realli very xin ku.. haiz.. some thing is 'ke yu bu ke qiu' de.. =( haha.. sometime thing keep too long inside realli will collapse one dae de.. so.. muz keep oneself busy so tt there will be no time for us to think so much.. hahahahahaha.. i crazy le.. sian.. going to rot whole day.. boring tues.. no event.. no program.. haiz.. not like my some other frenz.. all go out wif bf/gf.. sian ar.. nvm.. i shall find some event.. haha.. mayb juz go out walk walk ba.. sometime realli feel tt i very weak lo.. i can actually cry very easily de.. putting up a strong front is more xinku.. dun wan ppl to see the other side of mi.. so muz act strong cheerful n independent.. haiz.. when i realli neeed a shoulder to rest on.. haha.. i haf none.. ok le.. dun wanna think animore.. juz post tis enuff le.. haha.. juz trying to type wat is in my mind now...