dEpReSSiOn...!!!

rot at home todae.. haha.. slpt at 3+ yesterdae so todae slpt till 3+.. =x haha.. coz no1 at home la.. my aunt come out frm msia then my mother n my sis bring my cousins they all go out lorz.. i'm the onli 1 left at home.. so i juz slp lorz.. then intend to do my reports todae de.. but then i nv do.. =x heez.. i oso dunno wan.. juz wanna rot.. then i watch the dvd tt we borrow frm lib for our gems de.. then the show quite boring la.. wanna slp lorz.. =x actually still ok la.. starting dun realli understand la.. after tt still ok la.. nvm.. muz faster do all my reports.. data sheet.. n gems essay liao.. haiz.. sian ar.. still got interaction camp on the wkend.. then still got so mani quiz coming.. i going crazy liao.. haiz..
yesterdae went for cls food game.. hmm.. nt bad la.. but then quite tiring oso.. coz we all run n run lorz.. rushing for time.. then food oso eat a little onli.. then make mi so hungry.. =x nvm.. at least my team come in 2nd.. got $15 HMV voucher.. but then i change for $10 heeren voucher n the remaining $5 voucher sell to jas.. =) haha.. coz i seldom buy cd so hmv voucher to mi is useless.. tzehao came to meet us at esplanade.. but then he like kena pangseh la.. sorrie horz.. coz i going for my fren bdae celebration.. then weijian they all too tired le.. all go home aft tt.. then make tzehao more sian.. sorrie ya.. next time free then ask u out la k.. haha..
ok.. went to yong hua hse at tt coz meijie they all planned a surprise bdae party for him n his bro yong sheng.. coz they 2 are twin.. anyway.. i was late la.. coz i got food game ma.. so everything is plan by the others.. when i reach there i go bath le.. coz too tired n smelly liao.. haha.. then i eaten b4 i went there so i juz eat alittle bit la.. actually no appetite la.. oso dun realli noe y la.. then i juz sit there alone most of the time n listen to radio.. quite anti-social la.. =x haha.. then nv realli tok much to chunpei they all oso.. they i went to yong hua room to sign the card tt they intend to gif them de.. then inside tt room starting onli got mi n kenny.. then victor came in.. then they 2 start to tok rubbish n tease mi.. then victor as usual like to make fun of mi.. keep calling mi his 'gerfren' ya.. then kenny oso ask mi stupid qn.. then they 2 go n lock the door.. then meijie ask them to open the door both dun wan.. i oso cant go n open the door.. then juz sit there n listen to 2 of them crap.. then meijie went to off the light.. then inside our room is so dark.. then kenny ask mi stupid qn abt relationship.. actually i noe is ask for fun de.. but i dunno wat wrong wif mi.. tears juz roll down.. coz is dark so i juz cry lorz.. coz i nv tok ma.. then victor n kenny nv realise i was crying la.. then meijie on the light again.. then i hide my face under the pillow.. then they 2 realise i was crying.. then faster go out take tissue.. haha.. sorrie ppl.. i dunno wat wrong wif mi la.. DEPRESSION ya.. so juz wanna cry.. haha.. but dun wan let others see.. but i dunno y yesterdae juz cant control myself.. nvm.. i noe i scared meijie n chunpei.. they 2 keep asking mi wat wrong.. sorrie ppl.. i'm ok le.. dun wry.. i still smiling n laughing ya.. =) aniwae.. yesterdae was fun la.. haha.. taking pictures n stuff.. haha.. aft i cry out le i feel better la.. haha.. although my crying is in silence mood de.. onli got tears.. haha.. but aft tt realli feel better le.. thanx.. dun ask mi y i cry.. i juz dun feel like saying.. actually wat is the real reason i oso dunno.. is juz tt i think too much le.. the more i think.. the more depress i'm ba.. i very pessimistic de.. alwayz think the negative way de.. haha.. so juz bear wif mi alittle while ba.. sometime realli need to be my real self than the 'yenwei' who is alwayz crapping n laughing de.. haha...