LAST day of LECTURES...

todae is so called end of semester. todae is the last day of lectures n stuff. next week is revision week then aft that the next 2 week is exam week le. but then mon n wed still going back to sch. need to do my nuclear eassy le. monday is submission le. cannot drag anymore le. even though how much i dun wanna write that essay i die die oso must write it out so i can do 1 less qn during the exam for that part. wed got so called revision day for chem 2041 is go there to ask lecturer qn that u dun understand in the lectures or in the past yr papers.

haf been telling myself. just endure thru' this 23 days n i'll be back to singapore to my friends to the place where i'm familiar with. it realli tough to get thru all these days but i already endure n kena tortured n suffer for so long le.. just endure awhile more i will be back to my friends.. i realli miss them.. haiz.. sometime i realli regretted making tis choice of coming over here but i'm already here just get thru' it ba.. 1 of the friend i noe here she is giving up le. she is not going to study next sem. just 1 more sem she'll get the degree cert le but she choose to let go.. she dun feel like studying le.. she sae she dun wanna waste her money n time here le.. but is realli quite wasted.. she study for almost 1 yr just 1 more sem she will get her degree le.. she study 1.5 yrs coz she is frm chem engineering so she haf less exemption.. but then is realli kind of wasted.. sometime we also do think of giving up.. but give up le will realli waste alot of ppl the time n money n waste ppl de effort of supporting u to come here n realli will make them sad n disappointed... sometime is realli bcoz of all tis tt y we keep pushing ourselves to carry on n dun give up.. sometime we were talking actually we r realli working hard for that cert just for tt cert to make our life better n to make our family n friends proud of us.. but is that wat we realli wan? is just the path of life ba.. study n study.. study to get better pay.. work just to get the pay.. study just to get the better pay. is that wat we wan? but dun think we can choose coz that is life.. either u study if not u work.. unless u r lucky n born rich n dun need to bother abt working or study coz money wun be a problem to u.. but guess normal ppl like us haf no choice but to work hard to earn money ba.. guess in life alot of things we cant choose ba.. but then i'll still work hard toward my aim n target.. although i dunno will i meet it n has it the way i wan in the end i think at lease i tried le then other than regretted for nv try try till best oso nth to do liao.. haha.. oso dunno wat i'm going to sae le... i can onli sae i realli hope i can get out of tis situation soon.. i dunno is it the right choice but i already make it le n i'm here le.. so can the 1 yr faster pass.. haiz.. something i noe i might not be able to get it but i noe i dun give up n keep trying.. someday i might get it if nt i might get some other reward out from it.. if i dun try at all i definitely wun get it.. so wat to sae.. 永不放弃 ! yeah.. ppl can sae i'm stubborn ppl can sae i'm realli is a tough person.. dun care how u guys look at it.. some can sae is bad point of mi some can sae is good point of mi.. but then.. i noe wat i wan n i noe i haf to work hard n faster get out of tis tiring life.. study is tired but i noe working is tired too. but at least i'm in singapore i still got my friends i can meet them n stuff.. at here.. realli miss them alot..

as for that special friend.. i'm still working hard.. i'm nt giving up on anything.. although nth can change ur mind now but hope some days months or years down the road.. u will change ur mind n u realli feel the change in mi n feel that i'm the right ger.. although i dunno will i still be able touch ur heart but i guess it is nt important now.. mayb i'm not the kind of ger that u wan now n even i become better i still might not be ur cup of tea by then. but i believe as long as i change for the better is good enough le.. be friend might be a good way to noe whether we realli suit each other n to understand each other more ba.. i can also use time to test myself how deep n how much i actually love u n wat is the feeling i haf for u.. take it as a test for myself ba.. u might be the right one now but u might not be the right one in the future.. no one noe the answer for tis.. i might not be the right one now but mayb i might be the right one in future.. no one can answer tis question too.. just take it as a test to test myself. i guess i need to go thru' alot to noe wat is the right one for mi ba.. tis is different stage of life that i must go thru' to grow up ba.. stages of life.. is tough n painful to go thru' all tis but i noe aft all the rain n storm.. i will see the rainbow le.. =) 期待着雨后的彩虹


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