happiness

friends.closer friends.not that closer friends. acquaintance.soon a stranger.. it hurts but it can't be help nor anything can be done to make it better.. sigh... wait till the day i learn to let go n to feel that you, you and you etc don't matter to me anymore.. then is the day i won't feel the sadness anymore... it hurts. really does.. but i know there is nothing to be done or can be done anymore.. the more i see, the sadder i felt.. i felt happy for u.. is a good news, if i nv understand the photo rightly.. i miss those days i share ur joy n ur sadness.. but at this moment, i really feel happy for u.. although i know i might not b invited (anyway i guess it will be weird also).. but i wish u n him stay happy n lovely forever.. today was the first time i tell a colleague who asked me a random question and i answer back with "ever since i broke up with my ex boyfriend, i nv been in contact with my friends who i used to go out often".. so my colleague askedd "why?" and i could only reply in a calm but can't be help way "because is a common group of friends" and actually they are more of his friends.. oh well.. i guess is still back to the " i should take it so hard on myself" thinking which i dont think i can.. sigh..