mOoD sWiNg cOz oF my LeG.. hAiz..

sch almost started for 1 wk le.. tis 4 days are realli very tiring.. travelling from home to SP is very common to mi le so i dun mind the travelling time.. now wat is bothering mi is that it take mi very long to walk out from my hse n for mi to walk from dover mrt station to cls blocks with crutches.. leg realli aching n pain.. but i noe i wat i can onli do is to endure the pain n juz continue walking.. but todae.. i realli wanna give up hope le.. i see my leg i realli very sad, disappointed n angry with myself.. sad coz i think i very pathetic but i cause tis thing myself.. haiz.. disappointed with myself y i'm so weak.. cant i juz endure the pain n faster recover.. angry with myself coz i'm to be blame for all this troubles.. so afterall i deserved it.. who ask mi hand itchy.. haiz..

todae wanted to go n buy sandals coz my sandals spoilt le but i still struggling with it.. went to sport connection to see but there is onli a few pairs n is not very nice.. but got 1 or 2 i dun mind de.. but dun haf my shoes size.. on the left leg the sandal is very big but on the right side the sandal is ok.. starting i tot was the splint that i was wearing for my toe injury.. but when i remove that splint i realise that my right leg was swollen.. that tell why i try the sandal n it seem so weird.. tot is was a little bit swollen but comparing with my left leg.. it was very swollen.. swollen until my toes cant touch the ground when i rest my feet.. guess my injury is getting more serious le.. look at the leg i realli get very sad n wanna give up.. i realli very tired.. with tis injury.. i did alot of things n i cant do alot of things.. walk from dover mrt to cls block normally take mi abt 5 min ++ but now it took mi at least 10 min to 15 mins.. y? i realli very sad.. i guess my leg not hope le ba.. dunno y suddenly swollen.. i not sure whether yesterdae was swollen anot but i cfm on wed it is not swollen yet.. haiz.. i'm so sad.. juz hope that tml call CGH then the doc allow mi to go down for consultation even without appointment n hope he is not on leave..

dunno when my leg will be ok.. i guess now chinese new year clothes oso no need to buy liao la.. with tis kind of leg wear wat also no use.. coz even wear properly shoes/heel can onli wear sandal.. wanna go shopping oso cannot coz walk for awhile leg start to pain le.. y? y like that treat mi? i'm suffer for 2-3 wks le.. tis tis like hell lorz.. i wanna buy new clothes also cannot mayb i should not be thinking of shopping anymore coz i dun think i can.. m i too negative? i dunno.. i realli very pek chek with my leg.. ppl ask mi i alwayz sae i'm fine i'm ok.. but guess i'm nt ok i'm not fine ba.. haiz.. dunno la.. wkend coming.. suppose to stay at home to rest but i feel like going for the NTU talk at suntec tis sat.. i dunno i can go n again but i guess i should try to reg at least.. juz hope i can get ino local uni..