haiz.. things aren't going well.. i did want to shift to home aft exam to have some talks ba.. i noe we need to have some talks.. to get things talk out.. to settle stuff.. but then i wun be shifting back home le.. i'll be shifting out of home to ziyang they all de house temporary coz kim need my room.. since then i wun be back home although i will still be paying rent.. but tis also mean that.. we wun realli meet up le.. things will still remain awkward and stuff.. but i guess there isn't anything much to do le ba..

i might be irresponsible.. but then i'm already like not staying in that house le.. not using anything in that house.. is just that the room is occupy by my stuff.. maybe i very calculative.. i dun wanna pay more.. coz i realli tight in my budget now.. coz i not using anything in the house not eating in the house.. then maybe i shouldnt be paying for groceries le.. coz i'm eating at ziyang's hse.. i dun mind paying for others like petrol, internet and phone.. although i already nv use internet at home le.. but then i noe is unfair for u all to pay by urself.. but then electricity.. i just hoping that the next bill dun be so high.. coz i nv use much.. and i do afraid the heater will use alot of electricity..

everything is so un-settle.. getting house.. wat if i cant make it for honours and my exams so far is so damn sucky.. shifting from one hse to another is also very mafan.. everything goes back to money again.. how to get back the bond money..? how is the electric bill going to be settle if michelle is going to stay on.. then for the car.. i'm sorry but i reali feel that car need to be service le.. we haf not service it yet.. then the braking sound of the car.. the signal light glass.. de dented part.. the scratches on the car.. the sunburnt paint of the car... everything plus everything.. is money.. then come to the problem when going to sell the car.. plus the registration is onli till sept.. if dun sell by then.. need to extend it.. is money again.. yes.. i'm in need for money now.. i do hope to get back the money then i can do other stuff..

haiz.. i dunoo la.. money is problem.. is the cause.. communication is the catalyst.. no communication make the situation worse.. aiya.. wo ye bu zhi dao.. can i realli be 'not be bother' by all tis.. can i be bo chap.. can i sae i'm already tired le.. let mi be the worst friend of all. then let u ppl hate mi.. sometime i feel like doing things.. but it just cant be done..

i feel that.. we wun get a talk de.. things will remain tis way even till shijia left ba.. i dunno la.. i dunno want.. i dun how things will be diff.. but is already very diff now compare to those times..