my mood now is super terrible..
i'm super sad now..
just now almost wanna cry out liao..
but i hold my tears..
but i dunno i can tahan till when..

why am i always been aim..?
why i'm always picked on..?
haiz..
super emo now..

i'm suppose to be analyzing my x-ray reflectivity's data..
but there isn't results to analyze coz the range was not long enough..
then now become my fault for that..
starting do a long range de..
then i was told that i'm waste time on no result..
might as well shorten the range..

then now what..
my range of data was too little to analyze anything..
is my fault for not measuring it long enough..
so i wasted 2 weeks on that rubbish result..
or useless result..
haiz..
things don't seem well since i came back from diving..
i going to lose that motivation n spirit le..
doing work but ppl sae u not doing..
kind of tired le..
it makes me wonder..
is it a wrong decision..


want to tell *ahem abt tis..
but i afraid i will affect ur mood..
i guess i dun tell better ba..
but i just feel very 'wei qu' now..
very very..
how can i tell you but i'm not feeling alright..
especially you are not even here..
haiz..
and i know you will never know abt tis unless someone tell u..
coz u dun read my blog..