slap me pls..

feel like giving myself one hard slap on my face. i hurt a person who i didn't want to and i know who will nv hurt me.. what sort of woman am i.. i cant help but only laugh at myself.. i didn't make things clear and solve the problems which were initially there. i just let the problem be there and ignored them thinking that will be okay when time pass.. but now, things went wrong.. just so wrong, i dunno if i have make the right decision but i think i will wanna go on with the decision i made.. i know i might regret in the future or even curse and swear.. but i just hope to do a little for myself.. i know i'm being unfair to u.. i'm really sorry.. i'm a bad woman.. a woman that don't worth ur tears.. i also see myself not up.. i think i have yet to grow up to make me think like what most of u think.. but now, i wan a break.. i will just do my work n work.. i believe as time goes by, u will be alright.. i will be okay too..

scold me.. hate me.. vent ur anger at me.. is my fault.. u deserved a better treatment.. i know i let u down.. i know.. slap me please.. maybe i will grow up n wake up.. maybe there will be another better option..

should we try to start all over again.. and do those that we did wrong and make this time works.. but i'm afraid what if it doesn't work.. then i will hurt you again, which i don't want.. i really hate myself..