i'm going to plan for a holiday trip.. yes.. a trip maybe just over the weekends and maybe take monday or so to make it a 3 or 4 days trip.. or i will plan for a january holiday trip.. this time, i will plan my own trip, i used to be the one planning and i'm tired of being the planner so i let others plan it.. but this time, i will plan one.. this time, is just for myself since i don't have anyone to ask to doing the planning. i can plan a 3 to 4 days beach holiday or short getaways at somewhere near. i just need a holiday ba.. feel like going away and probably not return (in this case, is unlikely possible).. 1 person holiday.. i haben think or did it before, maybe i should try.. but how am i suppose to tell others i'm going somewhere alone, i guess most will go against the idea of traveling alone especially you are FEMALE.. that's what others always say.. i always have that 衝動 to just get some offer deal and sign up and is paid, so i can just go.. since is paid, they can't say anything more even if i'm alone.. sometime i wish i'm a guy, things might be easier..

now, is holiday to where? Thailand is flooding (sigh~~, yet to go Bangkok and maybe to Phuket since is beach).. is monsoon season (haizz....), beach holiday like is not recommended, is it? or i still can go? or maybe i can just go some island like Tioman or Aur or Lagkawi or Redang.. i just want a holiday, why is it that difficult just give me beach, sands, sun, blue/green water (not any of Singapore kind).. hmm.. or maybe Bintan? but i can't speak Malay =x or should i plan a longer one, mean is next year start so i won't clash with my colleagues who need to clear their leaves..? maybe to Japan or Korean (i have yet to any).. maybe i just go to Hokkaido or Jeju.. all seems so nice from the tv.. or i go backpack =x to china, tibet? nepal? if not, is Shanghai?

sigh.. why when i'm single, i can't travel alone.. i'm getting use to being single.. i'm handling and coping it quite alright i guess.. and maybe soon, i will be too use to being single which can be a good thing =) so nobody will suffer (guess u all should know what i mean by that).. whatever it is, being happy is enough.. don't think too far, just enjoy present no matter if you are single or attach or have a fling or in a 曖昧 situation or whatever.. just enjoy that present moment and don't think about future.. read this somewhere: don't think about the past as it is over, don't think of the future as it is not here yet, so enjoy the present. so i guess whenever i think of the past or the future that i can't see, i will get emotional and become very quiet as i'm thinking, maybe to other is too much, but we cant simply live life without thinking of future.. sometime i could be that happy because i enjoying myself to the fullest since that's the only moment that make me smile.. anyway.. i shall plan my holiday to somewhere and only inform after everything is confirmed =x so my plan will carry on.. let's see.. i shall treat myself good and have a retreat for myself soon in the next few months.. i shall just take out maybe $500 to $1000 to travel.. or just to nua somewhere but not in SG definitely..!!!