just get too emotional just now.. haha.. i guess is bcoz i keep things inside mi n hide it from others.. then whenever i tok abt it.. i might just lost control of my own emotions.. is either i talk till like it realli dun matter anymore (which is to hide my emotions) if not whenever i talk on msn with my frens or when i'm alone.. aiya.. duno la.. anyway.. yongsheng and ziyang thanks for listening to me.. thank god that u guys are here to brighten up my life at times. noe u guys are trying to help mi to get thru tis too.. xie xie ni men.. =)