gRadeS....

i decide to go.. coz tis isn't wat u wan and wat u like.. u are perfectly happie with ur life n u are happie with wat u haf ard u.. i'm something which u wun wanna have.. i guess i should go.. if i'm not the one u ever wan n not the one that u will ever consider and think of.. i guess leaving u is better for u n me.. coz u wun feel irritated, u wun feel pressure.. u wun haf to tahan mi.. for mi.. although i still love u.. i do miss u.. but i guess tis is a better solution.. i do think alot.. coz i noe.. i'm something that is bothering u in ur life.. knowing mi is a mistake.. being together with mi was the biggest mistake of ur life which realli make ur life suck.. i noe.. i noe i'm a burden in ur life.. my studies my health my emotions.. i noe.. dun treat it as a need or a responsibilities that u must take.. dun feel guilty or mayb u nv.. i dun wan to be someone u worry for.. i'm trying to cope with my studies although there are super high chance i wun get the grade u will wan but i'm still trying to.. i'm weak n not healthy.. i noe too.. but wat can i do.. i trying to stay healthy.. is not whose fault except is my fault for being bad in health.. yes.. memories do kill mi.. but i'm trying to flood myself with stupid stuff like staring at the tv but duno wat it is showing.. at least i wun think.. i like to keep myself busy although life is still super sian here..

and ya.. talking abt studies.. i guess tis sem wun be easy too.. i'm taking 4 courses.
CHEE 4301 : Nanomaterials & Their Characterisation (chem engineering de course)
CHEM 3003 : Reactivity & Properties of Molecular Systems (study thermodynamics & equilibria too.. haiz.. trying to kill myself too)
CHEM 3004 : Determination of Molecular Structure (the legend super killer module - i'm committing suicide but i haf no choice but watever i got is going to kill mi)
SCIE 3012 : Introduction to Research
and this is the grade that i will foresee for my result after attending tis week lectures...
CHEE 4301 : grade 4 or grade 5
CHEM 3003 : grade 4 or grade 5
CHEM 3004 : grade 4
SCIE 3012 : grade 4 or grade 5
best is i dun get any grade 3 which is failed.. haiz.. i duno la.. i just feel tis sem wun be an easy sem.. n i dun think i can meet the expectation n requirement u set so can save u some money le.. although i will still try to get grade 6.. but i doubt i can get more than one grade 6 n haf no grade 4.. i duno.. but i will try to get a much better result than last sem.. for myself too so that i can get a higher chance of studying Honours. haiz.. duno la.. just see how things go.. something is not that u dun focus or pay attention.. but sometime u just noe no matter how hard u try.. u still cant get the result that u wanted u can onli get certain standard.. ok la.. i duno wat to sae but i can onli tell my dear friends.. i will jia you de. although life here suck.. but i will still jia you.. for myself for u ppl too.. know might not get good result but guess if i try my best then i think i nv dui bu qi whoever ba.. whenever i wanna give up.. i will think of you so i will hang on there.. the motivation the spirit the pushing strength that keep mi going.. thanks for being my strength always although u nv knew that..


u are always here.. bcoz u rooted deeply in my heart & are here to support me always...
do hope i can keep to the promise too. promise that none of us should break.