eMotiOnaL

i guess i getting emotions breakdown.. realli very xin ku.. hiding the emotions.. i need to talk.. but my hse now is just a hse for ppl to stay.. not much interaction anymore.. i realli need to talk to some of my friends.. i realli got no motivation.. i'm living a day as a day.. it is boring but i try to make it not that boring even though it is realli boring.. everyday i wake up i duno wat to do.. my pillar is gone.. the motivation for myself is not there.. coz i cant find that.. i feeling very xin ku.. but i cant expect anything frm anyone especially u coz i got no right to ask anything from anyone.. i choose this path.. although initially it wasnt that tough but now this path alone is realli tough.. going thru days of misery.. i've cried.. dunno for wat.. or mayb i noe bcoz of wat but i got no choice.. the emotion is here.. i try to control in front of everyone.. but back in my room.. i cant control the tears and the 想念 and 思念 i just feel very xin ku.. i do miss my frenz though.. i realli hope they are here so i can talk to them.. tell them how i feel.. i can go out with them.. i realli miss my friends in singapore.. i need to go thru months of this.. i miss u.. but i noe everything is the past.. why do i still hope u can motivate mi.. u can push mi to study well..

when i need to talk to someone.. i found u online.. but u are busy.. who can i talk to now.. i cant expect u to be there for mi always.. i'm just a normal person.. not that special one.



5 months of this.soon 4 months of that