sometime....

it was a "happening" 'mid-sem break' last week..
'mid-sem break' which i dun have but those that i know
mostly are having their break..
ziyang they all (chemical engineering students) went to Sydney for field trip
while i'm still in brisbane..
going to sch daily coz no break.
mean got to do lab..

been doing quite a number of stuff
and kept myself occupied..
last week..
i been staying in lab till late..
like 9 plus 10 pm..
sometime even later..
then sometime make up my mind wanna bring stuff home to do le
like update my lab book and seminar note book..
but i nv done any last week =x
coz i'm jio-ed for mahjong always..
so wanna do work end up not doing any..
it was tiring coz play till late night/early morning
then next day wake up at 8 plus 9 am go sch do lab work..
but i'm great that my week was occupied..
meaning that i'm still able to "survive"..
(dun bother if this sentence make no sense to you)
still watch my taiwanese show..
still got half way to go..
but then dun think will be able to finish them soon..

have training on sat..
it was fine..
i umpired in the 1st 4 quarter..
a full 40 min game (10 min per quarter).
actually back in SG is always 15 min per quarter..
aft that 4 quarter then i played for 3 more quarter..
it was fun..
although i can't realli shoot now =x
plus the netball here is different quality from SG..
lighter and softer..

hmm..
this coming sat (11th Oct) is the ASEAN netball games..
hope that we can play well..
although i dun realli think we can win =x
haha..
but then just enjoy the game ba..
got to wear RED on fri (opening ceremony)..
coz Singapore colour is red..
hmm..
but then Indonesia is playing too..
their counrtry colour is also red rite =x
hmm.. make no sense..
and i dun realli have much red colour clothing..
sian 1/2..

sat night was also xiaoying's 21st birthday celebration at her house..
the usual people were invited..
so is just among us..
ian left early coz of work..
we just chit chat..
take photos..
watch tv and stuff..

left at 11pm like that for KTV session with barry they all..
a new place..
is at Woollongabba.. (i think is spell like that ba)
long time nv go KTV le..
nv realli sing alot alot..
coz got 10 of us..
then all of us sing de..
but we do have chitchat session among those who are not singing..
and we also got PK session..
compete among household to see who sing better..
haha..

anyway i sign up for something 'happening'
to me is happening coz i always wanted to do that..
but i know back in singapore i wun have the chance to do that..
so i just sign up here..
hope everything goes fine..
cant say what is it now..
coz i scare words will spread..
and i'll kena 'gan'/scold..
hmm.. when things are alright le.. then let you ppl know..
wish me good luck ya..
hope no one find out..
wanna keep it low profile..
some of you guys here know what is it about..
but then just keep it to urself ya..
dun sabotage me can le..

alright.. still in sch doing lab..
reach sch at 8.10am todae..
is the super early time for me le..
anyway..
most likely going to stay in lab till 9 plus 10 pm..
experiment still running.
cant stop half way de..
not suppose to be in sch for more than 12 hours de.
but todae realise my solutions not enough to run my experiment
so got to make more..
then drag n drag..
haiz..
luckily todae no seminar if not stay till even later..
so far record is stay in sch till 12.15am (midnight)
haha..
i did have an entry on for that day =)

ok.. got to save..
cant spend that much anyway..
been eating out often now..
coz work end late..
lazy to cook n wash..
plus by the time i reach home is late le..
the food also dun taste nice le..



sometime i just feel lost..
cause i don't know where i'm standing..
and it feels that i'm standing alone..
i guess i'm starting to fall in love with loneliness..
being alone..

sometime..
we just don't know what we want..
sometime..
we do know what we want
but..
we just don't wanna say it out and accept it..
and maybe not wanting to hurt others..

sometime..
i really wish
i wasn't given any choices..
cause i can never choose when i don't know what i want.
(e.g. choosing place to eat unless i have carving for certain food)
(esp. when i was given 2 choices that i also want but don't mind whichever)
sometime..
i really wish
i was given a choice..
so that i don't need to just accept the only choice given..

sometime..
i really wish..
there is someone who can choose for me
when he/she knows i'm in dilemma..
when he/she knows i really don't mind any choice choosen..
when he/she knows i really got no idea which to go for and i'm confused..

sometime..
i really wish..
there is someone out there..
who know when to choose for me..
and when to let me choose..
but..
most of the time..
i know..
such a person doesn't exist..
maybe he/she does..
but i never met he/she yet..
or maybe he/she does exist..
but..
already pass-by my life..

sometime..
i reallywish..
wishes will really come true..
sometime..
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haiz...
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