this is tougher than i thought i could withhold.. relax n dun rush.. but why is it that i cant slp well.. waking up once in a while.. i dun wish to b like last time, to get muscle relax medicine from doctor...

maybe i should take 1 big step out if thus whole picture.. to get out from relationship.. i'm not mature to handle them.. mayb i dont suit to be in any..

sigh.. i hate myself for being so unclear of what i want in my life.. this question is with me ever since secondary school.. but till now.. a decade, but i have yet to find the answer.. why...? i'm not grown up yet? sigh~