people cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long..



alright, that's it for everything.. every single thing and every single one.. i'm tired.. i can't take this anymore.. i just feel like dying now.. i just hate how emotional i can get.. some things that matter to you but not to others.. so, don't be bother to share any of those thoughts cause to others.. this means nothing at all.. is your own wishful thinking.. wake up from this damn bloody fact.. you hurt everyone and everyone didn't hurt you.. is you hurt yourself.. why will people still be bother with you.. yea, damn right.. i'm the one that can't communicate and so blame nobody except myself.. so what if people misunderstand my intention, there isn't any need to explain any further.. the more you say, people will just think that you are doing it to make yourself feel better. the situation won't change, beyond salvage. since it is so clear cut, why make addition effort only at this point of time.. ya... whatever it is.. i'm always doing wrong things at the wrong time.. or maybe to be exact, i never ever do a right thing at all.. it makes me wonder, why do i exist in this world..

my heart ache.. it hurts.. i always feel the pain and contraction at my heart.. i read news about something known as "heart broken illness", which will lead to heart failure.. but why, i'm yet to die..? i felt the symptoms and i could hardly breathe whenever i thought of those stuff.. i hate to cry.. but i'm doing it now.. i'm tired already.. this time, i know and can feel it already.. this will be it.. the last time i will ever feel ache and pain, cause i think my heart died.. i didnt want to do anything more and anything else.. just let me live a day as a day.. it might be easier and better in long term.. i'm withdrawing myself from everyone..

this time i will say.. everything is over.. whichever thing it is.. is just over and done with.. even if there is unclear doubts and stuff, even if there are question marks to all these.. it is over.. i'm tired.. mentally tired..