suppose to meet xian xi 1pm at wheelock but i woke up slightly late so ask if we could meet at 1.30pm.. so we changed location to bugis.. but xian xi was quite late as the bus he took was catch in jam. i before i met him, i have some bites as breakfast and lunch.. even got time to get KOI.. then even went a while shopping =x gotten 2 tee from b2b (back 2 basic).. just simple tee with simple words or picture.. the tee only got XS, S or M size.. just happen that both the design i like don't have size M.. so i tried S.. i'm able to fit in =) but then, the salegirl realise the other design only left with XS, so i tried.. i'm able to fit in ^_^ i was like so happy.. first time ever in Singapore i bought a XS tee in female cutting.. but this also means that i got to maintain like this or even get slimmer to be able to fit into those tee.. =)

met xianxi at about 2.30 i think.. we sat at MOS burger.. but don't know why we didn't start with the policies and insurances first but got a little catch up session.. i think was quite a long chat regarding me and ys.. he met with ys a couple weeks ago.. talked about the past r/s.. we talked for almost 2-3 hours on that issue.. a lot of things were mentioned in the conversation, alot of question marks and questions that don't have answers and stuff.. XX mentioned that i should find a time to talk to ys.. to sit down and talk things out.. talk about things that we have yet to speak out to each other.. to end everything peacefully rather than a bad breakup.. do you have things you want to talk that you yet to tell me? i think you do hate me, angry with me.. although you say you didn't.. but others around you could feel so.. so i guess we do have things that we have yet to speak up... don't put any open questions or questions that we have in minds or things that we want to say but yet to tell each other.. there might be some misunderstanding.. humans are strange.. we need to hear and see rather than always think that others know and understand even though we didnt speak it out.. i'm not too sure if you have cool down.. but i heard you are very rational and tell others that "this is it".. say it firmly.. is a good thing.. but it is what you feel or is what you force yourself to think this way.. we met a couple of time but we never talk on this breakup topic.. xx mentioned that if we breakup properly.. there shouldnt be an awkwardness when we meet.. this means, it isn't a good and clean breakup.. is it..? i'm not sure too.. but i guess we do have misunderstandng and stuff.. but i think some might think that "is it that important? since u guys already broke off".. hmm.. i'm not sure too.. this is a sensitive topic.. some things to me is important but not to others.. i also don't know.. this is the 1st time after almost 2 months that i talk on this topic and on it for so long.. not everything abt that r/s, it was also about myself and what i feel and stuff.. communication, that the important part and maybe is the reason why my relationship always doesn't work out well.. i can't communicate, as always......

alright, my head very quite painful now.. somehow the left and right corner of my forehead is painful.. then the bump by yesterday paintball at the right side since is a head shot (is super painful).. and the back of my head near the neck and my right ear.. the direct shot by my team mate during the first game.. is pain.. press a little can feel the pain =x then can't cross my right leg over left since my left thigh got 1 blue-black and is swollen =x hmm..