i'M bAcK iN SG

i'm back in Singapore.. arrived at 7.35 pm yesterday night.. mi n michelle took the same flight while xiaoying took SIA so she arrived at 8+ pm.. got alot of ppl come n meet mi yesterday.. is happie but then the 1 that i hope to see when i left singapore was not there n wun be there anymore.. my family, my cousins, shuting, senlin, janice n zhiming were there.. when arrive at the airport the feeling is weird or should sae all the while is weird. everytime i go to place that we were there before.. my heart will ache.. i hope i can dun think i will forget everything.. although i look fine to others but yesterday my father call my grandmother n i tok to her.. then she ask mi "free come back lorz.. big auntie sae bring back your boyfriend" u noe.. my heart is so pain.. i feel like crying.. i just tell my grandmother "huh.. dun haf le" then she ask mi "why.. u go overseas then he dun wan u le ar.. or he like some1 else" not onli my grandmother, my mother my auntie.. 1 by 1 ask mi.. i duno wat to sae.. i can onli sae "character dun suit".. but i noe if they carry on ask mi i will cry de.. but i dun wan. when my mother sae "together so long then character dun suit?" i duno wat to sae.. i just sae i duno la..

i realli wish i can see u but i noe i cant see u.. u hurt mi too much le.. i love u too much le.. i duno how to react.. when went to pass u the basketball shoes with shuting.. i realli hope u r not in.. i reali wish to look in to ur room again.. but u r in.. i can onli hide behind the wall where u wun see mi coz u sae it is better for u not to see mi n is the better solution.. i was telling shuting " 其实我很想见他 " i realli dun wish to admit tis but i still love u aft all tis.. why will i still miss u..
it realli hurt.. hurt alot alot.. y i haf to love u still.. i wish i can just forget u.. u already wun love mi le or should sae i'm nt the 1 that u love.. nth will get back to normal or to the past le.. i realli hope i nv fall so deep from u.. i tell shuting.. i still cant accept my world now.. i'm doing nth.. i got no target in my life.. i cant accept tis fact that everything changes.. but i nv tell her i still love u n i realli miss u alot alot.. i realli hope i can hate u but i just cant hate u.. hate u to core then mayb i will forget everything n noe how to not love u.. when mi n shuting was waiting for lift aft passing u the shoes.. i saw a black shadow at ur room de window.. i duno is it u.. but i dun dare to look.. i noe i cant.. 我很想见你，但我们不能见面的.. we so called "agree" to tis ba.. is over.. there wun be any ideal or best solution for tis case.. if wana sae.. the best ideal case is i can go back to the time where nth happen..

i'm tired le.. i guess crying realli make u tired n wana slp.. continue tml ba...