圈圈

你走进了我的圈圈里，但又突然走了出来了
我也随后离开了那个圈圈
只想把圈圈变得小小的，不再让任何人进去
想永远把你从圈圈里拿出来

Bernard's Birthdae Celebrate + Reiji Nite

went out for dinner yesterdae with the whole clique :
Male : Yong Sheng, Zi Yang, Ian, Hairul, Bernard & Yeow Kheong
Female : Shijia, Xiaoying, Yen Wei, Michelle

supposely wanna go eat Jap food de but then no seat end up eating Korean food which is also not bad coz i like Korean food too =) partly is coz we were out late so most of the shops going to close le.. partially is our fault coz we were trying to get ourselves dress up nice nice coz we are OUT to CELEBRATE BERNARD's Birthday..!!

Went to clubbing aft that.. went to Cesar.. is the club that Bernard always mention.. is called the Reiji Night. Yeow Kheong didnt join us for the clubbing part but James Brown(my another laopa) he joined us and with his another church's fren.. then Ken was there also.. so alot of people "celebrate" for Bernard.. haha.. kena Sabo.. kena "treat" drink so die die have to drink alot.. haha.. but then is fun having u people around.. brighten up my day =) make mi laugh when see u people dancing.. will laugh when u people die die also wan mi go dance.. will laugh when u people die die always wan mi to learn how to dance.. haha.. so yesterdae i'm just laughing and laughing non-stop.. haha.. laugh till my cheeks very numb n crump feeling.. haha.. but yesterdae was a fun day..

ok.. i will post up photo soon k.. sorrie ppl.. i noe it took mi very long with the loading of photo.. ok.. i will upload it soon..

消失

消失，不见了

失去了踪影

失去了消息

just get too emotional just now.. haha.. i guess is bcoz i keep things inside mi n hide it from others.. then whenever i tok abt it.. i might just lost control of my own emotions.. is either i talk till like it realli dun matter anymore (which is to hide my emotions) if not whenever i talk on msn with my frens or when i'm alone.. aiya.. duno la.. anyway.. yongsheng and ziyang thanks for listening to me.. thank god that u guys are here to brighten up my life at times. noe u guys are trying to help mi to get thru tis too.. xie xie ni men.. =)

you seem to have disappeared.. guess is what u wanted to do long ago ba.. disappear.. guess i should also disappear..


Graduation is on 16th July 2008 (Wednesday).. that is the date.. does it mean anything to you..? will u mark that date in ur mind.. will u remember that..? is ok.. i guess i noe that answer... =) take care.. duno when is ur BMT.. maybe u wun come ba.. will i ever got the chance to go for your POP.. guess wun ba.. as things aren't like before..

*praying that the medical check-up was fine n everything is great and fine.. take care*

sCaRy sCaRy...

is so scary.. while i was blogging.. i heard very loud banging noise outside.. it sound like someone is BANGING on our hse door.. not onli awhile but for quite a long while.. and the BANG-ING sound was quite loud.. but my 2 other housemate are asleep le.. i duno wat to do.. damn scare so i just open the light one by one.. then the noise stop.. but i dun dare to walk to the door.. and guess wat.. the window was not closed but i dun dare to walk there oso.. coz it look very dark outside.. i scare got ppl outside.. need to on the light at the living room there then can see outside.. but i scare.. i wanted to call ziyang or yongsheng le.. but they live nearby but late at night le.. scare wake them up.. luckily.. kokyan(my neighbour) he haben slp... i msn him.. then he come down take a look.. but realli super scary lehz.. is 3.20am already but there is loud banging noise outside my hse.. it took mi alot of courage to go close the window n on the light to see outside the hse.. super scare once the light on got ppl standing outside.. but luckily dun haf.. scare mi to death lorz.. is so late then heard tis kind of noise.. then duno wat to do.. last time got bernard dun haf tis kind of problem.. now left 3 ger nia then come tis kind of thing.. coz last week at 4am got an ang mo banging xiaoying room de window and smoking n talking very loud.. that y todae i heard the loud noise i very scare... but luckily nothing happened.. scary scary..

推动力

做任何事都毫无动力，毫无斗志。一直在推动着我的那股无形力气，逐渐的在消失。就如同他逐渐远离我的世界一样。但他却是我想要变得更好、想要进步、想要努力后再努力朝往的目标和给予我所有的勇气、耐力和决心的人。 但现在的我，一直在原地徘徊着，没有在往目标里前进。我必须找回我的推动力。

feel like calling you.. realli wanna hear ur voice.. i duno why but watever u sae i always remember.. watever u sae is just the strength the motivation for mi to hang on there n dun give up... pushing myself.. but i dun haf the courage to call.. even if i call i duno wat to talk abt.. coz things are just different now.. feel like asking you how is the medical checkup.. how is ur health.. how is ur uni admission thingy but i cant do that coz tis kind of qns i dun haf the right to ask.. even i ask.. i guess it will be better if u choose to tell mi urself without mi asking.. but.. i guess.. i wun ask u ba.. i duno y(actually i noe la) but i just care for u.. dun haf ur news.. but i hope u r fine n happie which i noe u will be with everything going well n smooth for u and with people that u need n want ard you.. good luck n jiayou.. i will pray and hope things will go well n smooth for u..


i miss you which i shouldn't. i love you which can't be change. take care my dearest. you will stay here(in my heart) forever.

一封寄不出的信，就好比一份说不出的爱

i miss you.. i'm trying not to.. but i guess tis just cant be control.. i still love you which i'm not suppose to.. haiz.. i guess my life my heart already has a place for you.. and that's forever..


我只能选择放弃或者继续爱你，但我根本无法不爱你
我想我只能这样继续傻傻的爱一个不会爱我的人
这不是笨也不是傻
因为这样爱你至少不比强迫我自己去忘了你，不去爱你来得痛苦
我不需要你来爱我，因为我只想爱你就好



你和我就如一杯茶和一杯咖啡，属于不同世界。就在一次的偶遇被彼此吸引，但你尝了尝，发现你并不爱喝咖啡，你还是比较爱喝茶。而我也不是你爱的那杯茶，但你却成为了我爱的那杯茶。