tml going to be the 61th week of the training with 44 weeks left.. can't wait for training to be over.. kinda torturing =x but it good to have nice colleagues ard at least there is something good that is happening.. something is kinda wrong with my life.. not knowing where i'm heading to.. feeling lost, like always as i'm always walking but dunno where or what i want at the ending point.. sometime it makes me feel so tired.. what's that that is tiring me i shall not mention as i'm trying to sort that out too.. been having good food and make myself happie.. is good just that hopefully my weight will not make me unhappy.. going to bali this coming friday with 7 colleagues.. i think it wil be a fun one =) looking forward to it as i'm always looking forward to events/activities to make my life not that routine and bored..

yesterday went miiee to Marina Square for a walk first.. then went to Holiday Inn Atrium for buffet that darling got the deal.com.sg voucher promo... have quite lot of salmon n mussels.. haha.. then was still early then started to walk form Holiday Inn to Outram MRT... then went to the starbucks at One Fullerton as was meeting a happening batch of friends to go Butter Factory.. meeting yisiew, huixian, junyi, alicia, weiguang, jingquan.. it was a happening n fun night.. haha.. what happen in the club stay in the club..

went for drinking session with jingquan, weiling, weiguang and alicia at ntu.. actually meiping n jensen were to join us but last min got some issue so couldn't join us.. quite lazy to post now.. will continue on this post in the future when i'm free coz is time to sleep now.. nights..

gonna be the 58th week of this training scheme.. with 47 more weeks to go.. hope time will travel faster.. recently have been very busy.. busy with work, training and of course with meeting up for dinner with colleagues and friends.. went to Le Le Pot at Seng Poh Road on Saturday (4th june) night with Marianna, Meijie, Diana, Rhoda... miiee miiee joined us for the dinner too.. was the first time rhoda and miiee met up.. after the steamboat buffet, we head to Mount Faber.. we went to emerald lounge (if i nv rmb wrong) at the Jewel Box.. we chilled and chit chat till almost 12 before we all head home.. is nice to meet up with them.. then we talk about our poly days.. and our KL games tour trip during Poly year 2.. miss those fun time that we have since all of us are busy with work n studies..

have netball trial last friday for LLAB10 NEL selection.. the aim is to select a team of committed 12 players with skills to help the team to get to somewhere great for this national energizer league.. i knew i cant make it for the team coz i'm not fit.. plus my skill is like shit now =( haiz.. felt so lost on court.. plus.. i dun even know which position should i even trial for.. sometime i felt so disappointed that i really wish to stop netball totally.. losing the passion for it.. cant achieve the target i set for myself.. cant even last a quarter of 10 minutes.. if to play consecutive 2 quarters, i'm dead.. totally.. haiz.. i'm still hanging on to netball is dunno of my character or what.. i find it very wasted to let go of it since i have been playing it since i'm 13.. is a decade.. but after so long.. i still dunno what is my strength n which position i'm more comfortable with.. i guess is bcoz i was always push here n there.. till i sometime feel better sitting on the bench.. coz i dun wanna be a burden to the rest of the team.. till now.. i still dunno what i really want..

sometime, i really feel so sad for myself.. no goals, no target.. dun see a direction to work towards to... okie.. i'm emo and tired now.. is time to grab some slp before i become a black and white warrior.. ahaha..