感覺好遙遠哦~~~

speechless when you felt helpless..

20.11.2011

today has a special date..
20-11-2011..
guess this date, a lot of people are getting marry as it is like
20.11.2011.. repetitive..

time to rest after a night of happenings.. D&D, photo taking, taking care of casualties and on standby mode and sending casualties home.. time to meet my boyfriend.. night~

-= 戀愛最美好的是曖昧的時候 =-

又回到最初的起点 记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终于来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片 无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点 呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样 穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后 故意讨你温柔的骂
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱著她

那些年错过的大雨 那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界 到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨 那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星 平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

-= 戀愛最美好的是曖昧的時候 =-


大笨蛋..!!
如果那時聽了答案，可能就不會错过爱情了⋯⋯


i love this part which i think is very meaningful:
曾经想征服全世界 到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
is more or less this meaning :
used to think of conquering the world, and at the end then realise, this world (bits and pieces) is all about you..

guess sometime we are always trying to work towards our goals and think that is what we want at the end of the day. but when we look back, then we realise, there is something else which is important as well, but we lost it..

You are the apple of my eyes 你永遠都是我眼裡的蘋果... guess in real life, this kind of things happen too. both might like each other but due to some misunderstanding or miscommunication, never end up being together. but again, there is also a saying : 得不到的才是最珍惜的.. life, is so unpredictable.. maybe today you can be that close with one another, but tomorrow, you 2 will be like a stranger. a friend posted this on FB: Stranger-friend-lover-stranger. Vicious cycle indeed.
so true right.. i think i'm going this cycle too..

is late already.. should be sleeping since i'm not feeling well. although i have a MC but i think i will still got to go work =( sigh~~

btw, i accepted my Master course. a reason to keep myself busy and anti-social for sometime (like 2.5 years or so) heez =x

back to square one..

i got a very big shock yesterday.. i guess this is the first time ever that i reacted in such a way =x i guess i was so unprepared for it that it really took me quite some time to get back to my normal self..



limitless period start..

went back msia over the long weekend to celebrate the 60th wedding anniversary of my grandparent. is a buffet style dinner with tents, karaoke, tables and chairs set outside my grandparent house. this is the 1st time after so long, that i didn't bring you along for special occasion and celebration. nobody asked me directly but relatives asked my mother.. is kind of weird and not use to it that you weren't around.. is weird right, is my family but somehow you weren't ard make me feel kind of out of place.. one of my cousin's child ask me where is my boyfriend.. oh well, i could only say, don't have to the small kids. they do remember you.. it does flash back memories of us at my grandparent's place.. but.. is already the past.. we all move on.. for a better future i guess..

i can't say i have somebody with me cause that person is not.. maybe is either one of us is the wrong person or is the wrong time. things are working (or maybe not).. but no matter what, i will keep a friend than to lose one unless that person is not worth keeping as friend..

time to think about my master course offer. got to enrol next week, cant delay my decision making anymore =( sigh~~ i also don't know who should i really consult although i talk to most.. but i guess is just that i need some justification to make myself do it willingly and full-heartedly and without anymore doubts.. with the course commencing Jan 2012, i will be busy with work and studies.. these 2 should be able to keep me busy for at least 2.5 years.. so i could not think anything about relationship since i also dont have the time to commit and maybe the wrong person and maybe is wrong time. is a sign.. taking up the course, i could take a long long break from relationship, but is this what i want? i also don't know, but i guess maybe at this stage, i'm just taking whatever comes along the way, but is term of works and studies, not anyone/man and just get together.. yup.. maybe till i find someone who is understanding, accept me for who i am, able to take my nonsense =x can help me with my decision making and maybe a great helper to me in life, able to motivate me in work and studies.. and likewise, that person will make me want to treat him well and stuff.. but i guess, this will not happen in real life.. is all a dream..