today is a moody day. the day started alright with me having Uncle Toby's muesli bar as breakfast in office.. then a lot of work popped out but got to take all even though i didn't absorb whatever was told to me. felt hungry at 10 plus then just a sudden thought, i wasn't hungry anymore for the whole day. i skipped lunch as somehow i didn't have appetite suddenly, so i did some work during then. the instrument i was in charge of has some issue and is the one and only instrument in office, no backup. so got to make it work and stuff. didn't work out still. left the calibration cycle to run when i left office on time today.
alan and denis jio-ed me for teabreak as they both know i didn't have lunch. i still didn't have appetite but went to cafeteria to meet them. have a bowl of green bean soup and a curry puff.. felt tired.. probably the extra workload added on to the tiredness from yesterday USS walk and fun...
my mind can't seem to be stopping.. i thought with yesterday post and thing will be done and slowly faded away.. but somehow now it kept my mind thinking and thinking.. "LEE YEN WEI, can you stop thinking!! nothing can be change already. WAKE UP and GO ON..!!!" so feel like slapping myself.. with this going on, i will have illness and depression soon. i have this problem of wanting to vomit if i thought about important stuff and if i will regret or very anxious abt it. i did have those wanting to vomit feeling when i waited for my O level result. i did have the wanting to vomit feeling when i thought abt the failing reason for my past past relationship. i will move on and i have to.. is the 27th already. i gave myself the deadline of 31-DEC-2011 to sort out everything and not drag anything. close whatever chapters that have to be closed as it cant link to anywhere else already. 4 days for all decisions, all thoughts, most of them to be settle, closed and that will be it. the end of everything and end of year 2011.. really 捨不得 but is for the better for all of us. i will be leaving and be living in my own world..
time to go on diet.. emo-ness make me slim down =x
alan and denis jio-ed me for teabreak as they both know i didn't have lunch. i still didn't have appetite but went to cafeteria to meet them. have a bowl of green bean soup and a curry puff.. felt tired.. probably the extra workload added on to the tiredness from yesterday USS walk and fun...
my mind can't seem to be stopping.. i thought with yesterday post and thing will be done and slowly faded away.. but somehow now it kept my mind thinking and thinking.. "LEE YEN WEI, can you stop thinking!! nothing can be change already. WAKE UP and GO ON..!!!" so feel like slapping myself.. with this going on, i will have illness and depression soon. i have this problem of wanting to vomit if i thought about important stuff and if i will regret or very anxious abt it. i did have those wanting to vomit feeling when i waited for my O level result. i did have the wanting to vomit feeling when i thought abt the failing reason for my past past relationship. i will move on and i have to.. is the 27th already. i gave myself the deadline of 31-DEC-2011 to sort out everything and not drag anything. close whatever chapters that have to be closed as it cant link to anywhere else already. 4 days for all decisions, all thoughts, most of them to be settle, closed and that will be it. the end of everything and end of year 2011.. really 捨不得 but is for the better for all of us. i will be leaving and be living in my own world..
time to go on diet.. emo-ness make me slim down =x
posted by aHwEi at
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