have a uni gathering with the Raven CC gang.. is an AGM at Praleum Wine Bistro at 4 Duxton Hill. dinner was alright. drank 1 Stella Artois and 2.5 pine of Hoegaarden. think i'm just trying to get myself drank to feel less..

a deadline that i'm setting for myself and this will be a final deadline for everything.. 28-Jan-2012.. a date which suppose to be special and meaningful in another sense, but this time, it will be meaningful too. After 28-Jan-2012 23:59:59, i will start dreaming, wishing and whatsoever.. i will be awaken from every single things.. after that date and time, is a rational and wake-up time, to live my life without a man.. to live my life alone but for what purpose, i still don't know.. life now seem so meaningless and of no purpose. i wished to start afresh on that special date which once means that much to us for us. but after tonight, i'm slapped awake. this can never be possible. i cant even talk to you, i cant ever dare to establish eye contact with you. i feel like you are so near but there are just walls between us..

cutting off everything from every single one.. starting from 28-Jan-2012 23:59:59.. whoever wants to come into my isolated world, you got to crack that layers of walls to get in cause this time, i will not make any more effort to do anymore things extra for anyone.. and this time, without any turning back or mercy.. i must be tough to myself. this time, i will throw abt all the past, all the poly days, all the uni days, all the aussie days, all the sg days and also include all those GSK days.. every single one of it.

or probably starting from tmr, all contacts are all cut.. all contact point unless deem necessary by me. since 28th is so near already, less than 2 weeks, probably is the time to get use to all.. ignore all and reject all.. u can never be happy with me anymore so leaving you is a better and fairer option.. is tough and heart-aching but i think is a wiser choice that i could make for u.