我的不安，只有你不懂.... 尝试了，但没法接受。如果现在勉强接受，但将来的某一天，我还是会崩溃。对不起，如果形势没变化，我会离去。但你似乎无法懂得我的顾虑和不安.... 

Exam in 6hours time.. Flying to Taiwan (maybe flying alone) in 13 hrs.. Taking a 10 days leave from SG, work and studies.. Can't wait for this holiday.. Somehow, this year seem so tough for me.. At the age of 24, I think my life suck and the most torturing, most changes and also challenges for me to handle.. Too much pressure and stress that I think I couldn't handle that was why I collapse once but I just hope the next one don't come so soon.. I think my heart is weak., emotionally weak but able to overcome and not showing signs to anyone.. Sigh.. Sometime I really feel very helpless.. Looking ard me, I also don't know who to approach already.. Friends? Family? Nope.. I dont think so. Haiz..

did scoping today.. doctor say monitor it.. visit him in 4 months time.. CGH always have young n new doctor.. don't feel it too convincing but cant be help.. SGH specialist appt is 2 months later.. so in the end, CGH is chosen..

exam in 2 weeks and i'm stuck with 2 journal summaries and questions, practical report, peer review on another classmate article and revision to be done. i'm dead.. feeling that time isn't enough.. arghh...

bought a new deuter backpack ACT Lite 60+10L EL at Queensway for $300 =x was quoted $329 initially.. aft much discussion n talk, i still get that which i planned for backpacking trip =)

went polyclinic to see doctor for lymph nodes on my neck.. for the past 2 months it come on n off when it shouldnt b.. gotten specialist referral to do biopsy as it can b cancer related.. let's see how it goes..