back from genting.. feeling tired since this morning.. just feel like taking leave n sleep at home =x lost quite an amt of money =( met alan for dinner today.. he found a new job n hope he will do fine there =)

happiness

friends.closer friends.not that closer friends. acquaintance.soon a stranger.. it hurts but it can't be help nor anything can be done to make it better.. sigh... wait till the day i learn to let go n to feel that you, you and you etc don't matter to me anymore.. then is the day i won't feel the sadness anymore... it hurts. really does.. but i know there is nothing to be done or can be done anymore.. the more i see, the sadder i felt.. i felt happy for u.. is a good news, if i nv understand the photo rightly.. i miss those days i share ur joy n ur sadness.. but at this moment, i really feel happy for u.. although i know i might not b invited (anyway i guess it will be weird also).. but i wish u n him stay happy n lovely forever.. today was the first time i tell a colleague who asked me a random question and i answer back with "ever since i broke up with my ex boyfriend, i nv been in contact with my friends who i used to go out often".. so my colleague askedd "why?" and i could only reply in a calm but can't be help way "because is a common group of friends" and actually they are more of his friends.. oh well.. i guess is still back to the " i should take it so hard on myself" thinking which i dont think i can.. sigh..

scubapro seawing nova fins

got myself a pair of scuba fins some days ago.. scubapro seawing nova fins.. it white and it has a shape of stingray =) haha... tried the fins yesterday during diving refresher course.. still not use to it yet and it might be the pool was small n not too deep too.. lost my sense for diving =x sigh..

cant wait for my refresher to experience the underwater feeling and being alone there.. no worries no trouble.. how i wish i dont need to surface up.. sigh..

BARE booties

i got my diving booties =) heez.. it costs $42, with 5% discount is $39.90... the brand is BARE.. i might get my first pair of scuba fins.. estimated price will be $180 to $200.. maybe will cost slightly more.. still deciding... quite happy as i'm progressing to where i wanted as i always want to go diving and slowly get my equipment so i can dive at different parts of the world.. ever since Cairns, i nv dived.. so, i'm waiting for my next dive after i got my certification.. it been almost 3 years =x no Boracay (Philippines) but Redang (Malaysia) is good enough ^_^ finally, i'm going to an island with blue blue sea, white sand, nice coral and relaxing mode.. and best of all, my long awaited diving trip after almost 3 years.. i guess an impromptu trip is easier to plan than to always plan months/years ahead..

怎麼哭了，怎麼覺得心隱隱作痛。好辛苦⋯⋯

i'm tired and sleepy but is waiting for 12am to be able to register for my course.. as is the first time i register for course so i'm quite kaisu and hope to get the course that i want as elective.. went to watch Spider-man today with my father's company at Vivo City.. Nice movie.. going back Malaysia next weekend for grandfather's 80th birthday ^_^ hope he stay young and healthy... planning for a getaway as i really didn't feel that taiwan trip was a holiday as i didnt enjoy it.. sigh.. it is an emo night whenever i saw the facebook profile of people that i was once close to...