today is the saddest day ever.. tears just cant stop and i really feel hurt..

how can i convince you that we aren't suitable? or maybe you think we are but actions and facts show that we aren't.. try, tried, tried hard, even harder but things just aren't going well or smooth..

u can't change and i can't change. we both shouldn't be even changing.. i can't compromise or accommodate to your thinking, action n behaviour.. u felt i expect too much that u can't possibly give but u tried ur best to give whatever u can.. i felt u didn't try hard enough or even determine enough to "get there" where i feel is the minimum..  i don't know but i just feel there isn't really determination in working things out.. is just like tell ppl, at least i try n give my best but is it the best ever, only one will know..

i know it very well, know the truth which one can't deny.. we can never get there.. we will nv get there somehow, one day, eventually.. it might be responsible but yet irresponsible.. how long do i have to walk thru this, sleep through with this.. how long can i be ignorant about, n pretend it is okay when i'm not and yet nobody can tell that.. i have slowed down my pace so much that i feel i'm dragging my feet to slow down.. it it that much to ask for? it is that much to hope for? mindsets are different, vision/views and everything is so so different.. tell me, will this even be a happy one?

i'm hurt.. what i could do is just to tear to sleep.. the heart aching feeling is killing me.. i hate myself for being emotional and not being able to stop my heart from feeling the contracting which is aching..

i could nv understand... why there isn't love..? why can't it be love..?

how long can i live with it n ignore the fact which i feel very important about..