i jUst wAnNa LeAvE..

i wanna leave.. i wanna leave the world that has u inside.. u keep saying hurtful n mean things to mi.. wo zhi shi xi huan ni er yi.. wei shen me ni yao zhe yang dui wo.. tis wun work de.. u r just trying to kill mi with tis.. all the things u sae r just trying to kill mi.. kill mi more n more.. it is not doing any good.. not at all.. u think it will make mi hate u but i cant hate u.. u think tis is the best approach.. but no.. it is killing mi even more..

keep hiding my emotions n my thinkings.. tis wun work de.. i going crazy.. i realli will collapse.. n i will be collapse..very soon le..

just kill mi please.. i living 1 day as a day.. everyday is so miserable.. too miserable le.. i cant eat like normal.. nv can i.. even those food that i used to like.. i see them i feel like vomiting.. fried food used to be my love but now.. even chocolate i oso cant realli eat le.. i cant slp normally.. the onli way to make myself slp is to cry to make myself tired then i can slp.. if not.. even till 4 am 5 am.. i still cant slp.. or mayb i should try panadol de approach.. at least i no need to cry till so badly every night.. cry like nobody business.. sometime i realli hope i can cry to death.. isnt it better.. i'm not a human anymore.. i cant live like others.. even eating oso seem so difficult.. i guess i realli train my stomach for not eat since i have the record of not eating for 2-3 days in australia.. i dun feel hungry.. or when i feel hungry i see the food i feel like vomiting.. all of them is the food that i love but now.. they make mi feel like vomiting.. i cant feel anything.. i'm living in a world that i haf no interest at all.. i feeling nth else...

i just wanna leave...