didn't sleep well last night or should sae i didn't manage to fall asleep.. is you that is in my mind throughout.. haiz.. i duno why.. recently u kept appearing in my dreams.. it make mi not able to sleep.. i duno why but it kept mi worried.. haiz.. but there is nothing i can do but i noe no matter wat happened she will be there for you whenever you need someone.. but knowing tis is enough le coz i noe someone will be there to support you when u falling then i duno need to worry you fell coz i noe you wun fall de.. jiayou k.. i can onli see you one far corner.. but to mi you are ok fine n happie.. i happie le.. i'll alwayz be there if u realli need someone.. but i noe you wun approach mi even when u realli cant find anyone.. but just to let you noe that there is someone here when u cant find annyone le..

i received a bad new..
very very bad new..
it made mi cried..
why did that happened..?
when did that happened..?
what caused that hole..?

it made me cried so badly..
please dun let anything happen to you..
i cant accept if anything happen to you..
please do take care of yourself..
i'm really very sad now..
i can't let anything happen to you..
could god please protect you from any harm..
please don't let anything happen to you..
that is my only hope & i will pray that the hole will be gone..
please protect you.. please let you be safe and sound..

haiz.. i cried again..

有种很辛苦的感觉
别人无法了解的感觉

为什么这些感觉突然全跑回来了
弄得我好辛苦
为什么又要让我重新经历这种感觉

mY mUsHrOoM fAMiLy pHoTo..

hEre is my mUshRoOm fAmiLy de pHotOs..


-=taken in office during x'mas eve.. nv realise actually i got another mushroom gift=-


-=my rEd mUsHrOoM fAmiLy.. cUte ritE.. sMaLL oNe iS mY cAr kEy dE kEy cHaiN.. middLe siZe oNe is a hAnDpHoNe hoLdEr.. big oNe oF cOz iS to hUg dE.. =-

nv take out the big mushroom to hug la.. coz i still prefer my favourite pillow.. haha.. see that handphone holder oso very cute but duno should use anot.. scare it get dirty.. haha.. kind of miss my previous handphone holder.. cant realli rmb how it look like but is square-ish n is an anime character.. hmm.. nvm.. now got my mushroom family.. cute rite.. still got another photo which i took with 3 of them n the christmas tree in the office..

do you worth it?

feeling very sad..
feeling very moody..

no.. i noe i cannot cry coz i promise myself that i wun cry ever again..
what is making mi so moody..?
the feeling of crying come back le..
just feeling very sad without particular reason
what is the reason that make mi wanna cry i oso duno.
but suddenly memories just come back again n again todae..
but even it does.. i noe i can handle all tis emotions..
no more crying.. no more tears..
the person who is worth waiting for will not be the reason for cry..
the person who worth for the tear wouldn't make u cry..
i already say before le.. it wouldn't be a pain but be a smile..
though it hurts at times but a smile will brighten everyone else mood..
so i cant show any moody face to others..
smile.. i'm the cheerful girl that everyone wanna see..

haiz.......

very strong feeling..
i miss you.. miss very badly..
i do miss you always but today the missing feeling was so strong..
dunno why the heartache feeling..

using alot of mental power to control my feeling n my emotions..
dun let the "i miss you" feeling take over mi..
but i realli miss you lotx..
you won't noe tis..
ever you do.. there isnt anything you can do too..
there isn't a place for mi in your heart & life..


today u n her together 1 month le.. but just wan u to be happie.. is mi or her or someone else is not important.. u happie can le.. ni xingfu jiu hao..

ChRiStmAs giFts..!!

today is a super happie day.. ok.. i didnt slp coz play mahjong overnight at jun hse till 7+am then sent keong home then i bath then go work liao.. todae work is onli HALF DAY =) n my job for todae is to ensure that i send out all the e-greeting cards.. i manage to finish them by 10am.. then aft that do others stuff.. then 11am-1pm is the Christmas celebration with foods and KTV.. we haf gift exchange.. i got one of the colleague de chocolate biscuit.. yes.. my department is Staff Communciations and onli got 2 staff (Lydia - Senior Manager & Eng Chiow - Senior Executive).. they bought mi Christmas gift.. and is something big & i realli like it alot alot =) realli very happie lorz.. they bought mi a BIG MUSHROOM de SOFT TOY.. is exactly the same as my car key de key chain toy.. red mushroom.. then another colleague from another department but we are the same GROUP which is the HUMAN CAPITAL GROUP.. Christina she bought mi a christmas gift oso.. is the red mushroom oso =) is a handphone holder.. omg.. i'm so so HAPPY lorz.. so i got 3 different size de mushroom =) and the 2 mushroom is i will wanna haf but i wun spend money go n buy de la.. as for the handphone holder.. actually i wanna get back the one that is left at someone house.. but guess just let him haf it ba.. or mayb is already gave to someone else le.. but is a gift that someone bought for mi but that time nv take back but i guess leave it there.. if that someone still can rmb that belong to mi or bring back some memories is good enough le.. anyway i got my RED MUSHROOM..!!! i took photo with the 3 of them.. haha.. my MUSHROOM FAMILY =) the one i took with the 3 mushrooms is use my colleague de camera.. upload next time when she send to mi.. i got the small and the big mushrooms photo.. soon i'll build up my mushroom collection =x haha.. the mushroom got 5 colours (sky blue, brown, green, yellow & red) but i'm going for the red one =) starting i got the red mushroom keychain for the car key coz scare other colour my brother will kaopei but Jahan sae red look nice and is not girlish or wat so should be ok.. haha.. then my colleagues got mi another 2 of red mushroom.. hehe.. happie..

ok.. just got home from fetching my sister.. actually went for dinner with grevin they all.. got alot of us.. 18 of us =) we went to Miss Clarity Cafe and eat.. is at bugis there.. the cafe where janice used to work at.. we haf our dinner at 7+8 that kind.. then aft dinner we haf our gift exchange.. i got yongsheng de gift.. is an Adidas de cap but that sean john go n pass around saying that he buying a G-string.. so when shuting they all noe i got his present their expressions changes i oso duno how to describe they just sae "yenwei.. must wear ar.." grevin they all oso lorz.. but then i noe is an adidas cap coz in the morning chatting online in the office with yongsheng he already tell mi wat he buy liao.. haha.. then my gift which is Body Shop de give to Junhao.. then aft that we take photos all this.. then wanna go KTV but then very expensive($38 per pax) so end up they went to Beavers which is a pub at Bugis there.. sit down there awhile i go off coz is already 10+ liao. need to fetch my sis home somemore i'm driving so no drinking =) heez.. and i'm not interested in drinking la.. ok.. this year i receive alot of Christmas gifts and haf a great time too.. having a car to drive around seem so fun n relaxing.. wanna go out just go out.. hehez.. been driving everyday since the 2nd car come.. haha.. duno when my brother come back i will haf the chance to drive go out that often n as i like.. haha..

1 year pass so fast.. last year today i'm in Changi General Hospital due to a stun i did.. haiz.. but that 1 incident changes everything.. especially my life.. although that bone crack haf already heal but it didn't heal perfectly n it does hurt mi at time.. did felt the pain that day when i played netball.. is kind of sudden coz i nv felt that before.. will feel the strain when wearing heels but i noe i'm suppose to overcome it n stuff.. my life has changes with that incident.. is my fault for that.. couldn't mend that crack anymore but hope 1 day it will heal up itself..


last year you are just by my side.. this year you are at her side.. but just want you to be happie & fine.. that will be enough.. read this recently: it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. i dun need to have you with mi or be at my side coz this is not wat i wan anymore.. i just wan you to be happie with you life and free of troubles and worries..

SONY ERICSSON W910i

a few days nv blog liao.. these few days haf been busy.. tues meet up with diana, mari n meijie.. coz diana flying off for her training flight so before she goes off we wanna meet up.. then wed went to starhub to get my phone.. YEAH! i got a new phone.. SONY ERICSSON W910i.. wanted to get the red colour de but then dun haf that le.. so end up taking black colour de.. peck oso got that colour so i wanna get the red wan.. different mahz.. somemore the red colour look cooler but then dun haf stock =( haiz.. sad sad.. coz haf to rush to buy phone before 24th coz the voucher expire of 24th dec then somemore my mother going back msia tis sat.. so no choice liao.. haf to get the black one.. starting wanan get the other phone which is W580i but then coz i recontact my plan so if i get the W580i then the $200 voucher will is of not much use.. i will lost $102.. so end up i get the W910i which i still need to pay $98... but ok la.. $98.. but then nv trade in my Nokia N73 coz my mother wanna give it to my cousin but then i now still using Nokia N73.. haben get use to Sony Ericsson.. then still wanna transfer photos music n calendar de details all this.. mayb will start using soon.. haha.. but those inbox messages will gone.. haiz.. maybe is good oso la.. let the past be the past.. leave the space for the future.. i noe i will be happie.. i noe wat i wan n i noe how i feel.. even things dun turn out the way i hope it will be.. i'm still happie coz i changes n i grow up.. i noe how to be selfish-less.. i sacrifice and give but the end outcome i wan is that that someone is happie n fine.. temper changes.. character changes.. dressing changes.. =) is all good changes.. mature way of love.. i noe how to.. coz wat u wan for that person is for that person to be fine n happie alwayz.. true..? emotions n feelings - let them stay inside you.. coz wat you wan is all the friends that someone n others not to worry n be happie..


deep in my heart.. the root went deeper n deeper..

i'M bUrNt..! sUpeR cHaO dA

drive to kallang netball centre today.. todae got year end carnival.. start at 9 n i reach at 9am.. luckily i'm not umpiring the 1st game.. i'm feel very hot n burnt now.. so chao da de feeling.. face is very tanned.. then nose red red.. n very painful.. keep applying moisturizer scare later peel that time very painful.. tml car taking to workshop to check the windows n stuff.. no car =( sad sad.. haiz.. ok la.. dun get too dependent on car oso coz is not meant for mi de.. haha.. but i'm been driving tis few days.. haha.. duno la.. i nv drive oso put at home.. so just drive rite.. haha.. ok.. very tired le... need plenty of sleep.. tml still got work.. somemore no car means must wake up at 6.30 that kind le.. haiz.. sad sad.. i wanna buy car.. but not now.. when i grad n earn lot of money ba.. haha..

sUppEr & sUpPeR..

just reach home.. just back from supper.. meet 2 different grp of ppl todae..

meet janice in late afternoon.. starting sae wanna go orchard then end up we went to hougang plaza find zhiming.. coz zm is working so mi n janice just keep saying in kbox lorz.. drive to pick up tc at 9 plus then drive to orchard de swensen.. zm treat.. haha.. then aft that drive up to yishun dam.. is a place that i nv went before.. it look nice.. is like those racers de place.. can see ppl racing then got very nice cars n alot of cars are there.. the scenery there oso not bad la.. got water then at night feel very relax.. then aft that drive zm back to hougang to pick up his bike then i drove janice home.. n is already 12+1 that kind liao..

at swensens chihan call to ask wanna go out anot.. ok la.. since i'm driving then long time nv meet huixian n chihan liao.. so i meet then at pasir ris park coz the starting plan is to eat at fisherman village but it was close so they waited there for mi la.. so end up we went to lavender de food centre.. roddy sat chihan car then jun huixian n keong sat my car.. haha.. ok la.. is quite fun when got car then can travel ard SG lorz.. then sometime they like to ji siao ask mi overtake chihan all tis.. haha.. aft the supper which i nv realli eat coz scare will get fat.. is already 3 like tt liao.. can see keong very tired.. book out then meet us liao.. then i send jun n roddy home.. i did a STUNT ! haha.. "drifting" n is very loud =x haha.. coz is amber light then i wanna turn left n i chiong-ing =x haha.. then i brake to slow down n turn.. then jun sitting behind move from left side to right side.. haha.. is a very sharp turn wide turn.. then jun n roddy were like.. "wah" haha.. paiseh ar.. is very late then wanna rush home.. coz got umpiring at 9 am on sunday.. that y.. haha.. ok.. must discipline liao.. be a good n safety driver.. dun chiong amber light liao.. haha..

CHOMP CHOMP

got llab10 training todae.. aft training fetch my sister home then mi meijie n mari went t0 Chomp Chomp to makan.. i drive there ^_^ finally i went there =x haha.. realli is mountain turtle.. ate alot lorz..

very slpy now.. continue when i'm awake..

dRivE ! ! ! =)

just reach home.. went out for a movie with jun.. suppose to watch 7pm de Enchanted at Marina Square de but then by the time i reach is already 6.30++ liao.. wanna buy ticket then the person tell mi onli left 3 single seats.. so.. end up we watching another show which is The Warlords which is at 9.40 pm.. so we went to suntec eat Fish & Co. n we orders seafood platter for 2 persons.. BUT THEN.. the FOOD IS TOO MUCH LE !! hmm.. aft that still eat ice-cream.. so u all noe how much FATS i eaten.. haiz.. need to slim down coz i dun wanna gain weight or get any fatter liao.. ok.. movie ended at 12+am.. is good that i drive to work todae.. at least no need take cab n midnight charges all tis.. yup.. drive to work todae.. the feeling of having the car to u feel GREAT.. SUPER GREAT ! haha.. then can dun need wake up so early to take the bus which take abt 50 mins to 1 hour that kind.. got car wanna go out till late late oso can =) heez.. so must make full use of the car.. but todae already use 1 quarter tank of petrol liao.. hmm.. but everyone sit my car todae tell mi this car is good look very new all tis.. but i got no idea how good it is n how new it is.. haha.. can drive n dun look too old to mi is ok.. heez.. at least got a car to drive out n stuff ^_^ ok.. got to slp early liao.. tml work again n training in the night.. need some rest.. ok la.. i enjoy driving.. driving is a leisure to mi.. no need sports car or very good car de.. heez.. happie happie.. life changes alot since that incident.. realise the differences n sometime do hope u can enjoy all tis with mi n stuff.. but is ok la.. got a car is good.. can go out with friends n stuff =) till how late oso nvm =x heez.. meet up quite often with jun keong they all.. haha.. partially is mahjong session n talk craps session.. but then whenever got keong around realli is lame n he realli can make mi laugh coz of his lame jokes n lame face n lame expression.. haha..



although you are not with me by my side & i'm not with you by your side. as long as you live well n good & is happie.. that will be good enough.

2nd CaR is HERE ! ! !

todae nv get phone =( coz todae eating dinner outside.. is kind of change of plan la.. morning father call n ask mi mother sae go out n eat dinner ask mi can drive anot.. then i sae ok lorz.. by the time finish dinner already like 8.20 that kind liao.. so is either go on sat morning or monday evening liao.. anyway.. HABEN get a NEW PHONE.. but i got a CAR =) heez.. although is second hand car but is still good to haf another car to use.. so now my hse got 2 cars.. then my brother went to china then my mother dun wanna drive.. so i'm the onli 1 left.. the car is for my use for the time being.. after brother come back then must fight to use car liao =( haha.. but i GOT the CAR to ME till END OF THIS YEAR ! heez.. happie happie.. anyway.. the car is HONDA CITY.. when reverse got the screen to see so that wun knock behind the car.. so is not bad oso.. although is not as good as a BMW.. but better than not having a car rite.. for mi having a car that can drive n not those very old can le.. i'm not very picky for tis.. is fine to mi coz i feel the car is ok lorz.. like those family car that kind lorz..

CAR CAR CAR.. ^_^ supper is now not a problem.. haha.. although i haf been using my father de car for supper in the past but then got 2 car.. no need to "fight" for the car.. haha..

Love, Me

Love, Me - Collin Raye
fell in love with this song.. realli very very nice.. Jun Yi intro de. then happen then my colleague got tis ringtone then bluetooth to my phone =) nice song.. must listen.. which is now playing in my blog =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ND7Q6DOdsAY&feature=related

SSC HC's Retreat @ NSRCC

have i mentioned that.. i'm working.. haha.. onli those i close to know that i'm working n work at where la.. but tis job is intro by jahan de.. so my workplace got jahan & fazil which both is my poly classmates.. mi n jahan same Group de but different Department.. we belong to the Human Capital (HC)group.. today has HC's retreat at NSRCC.. as i'm working in Staff Communication which is in charge of this retreat planning n stuff.. my job was to find out where got function room n get quotation then planning n making sure the event goes well.. ok la.. so todae i'm actually paid to go enjoy myself =x haha.. free tea break free lunch free KTV free bowling game =) heez.. n is paied for todae oso.. where got such a good thing sia =x heez.. ok la.. todae bowling i did quite well la.. usually i hit less than 100 point de but todae i got 135 points =) heez.. 2nd highes & i got the gift which is a bathing towel la.. but enjoy.. very very long nv go bowling le.. ok.. anyway.. i'm working at Singapore Sports Council (SSC) heez.. behind the MAC at kallang which is very very near to kallang netball centre so i dun need worried i'm be late for llab10 de training on friday.. then somemore got direct bus (bus 12) there.. haha.. then got jahan to tok cock n craps although we dun sit very near la.. but the work at time can be relax n slack =x haha..

ook.. is time to promote.. i haf been promoting my work place to quite a few of my friends.. haha.. in my office.. which is the temporary HQ for SSC for 4 years before the new sports hub is done.. there is POOL TABLE, TABLE TENNIS, DARTS, CARROM, FOOSBALL.. when u work till very tired n need to relax u can go n play.. is free.. then somemore at the canteen.. there is TV.. with STARTHUB CABLE.. with alot alot of channels =) haha.. then drink like MILO, NESCAFE, TEA all tis is free oso.. haha.. sound like i'm working anot =x haha.. realli slacking n ENJOY LIFE horz.. heez.. like tis work place.. colleagues not bad then got jahan to craps at times.. then got games to play.. then the pay is also better than last time the company that i work as temp. staff.. heez.. n i can go to mac to buy a drink or buy breakfast.. that time my colleague tell mi "u nothing to do ar, go play bowling la" then i quite stunned.. bowling lehz.. company where got bowling to play.. he ask mi go to leisure park to play.. haha.. so noe how is my work life anot =x heez.. but mayb onli now la.. when got event n programme coming in then start to busy liao.. but so far it seem fine la =) heez..

ANOTHER HAPPIE NEWS ! I'M GOING TO GET A NEW PHONE TOMORROW ! heez.. dun tell u all wat model first.. when i get it le then take photos let u all see.. haha.. happie happie.. life seems fine now.. got work got money =) heez.. although something that i hope to get isnt there but i realise wat i need is a mature one.. not one who will compare n think for oneself.. guess i need that someone to be mature enough n is others feel that that someone is mature instead of that someone feel that he is mature.. ok.. enough of all tis.. will not affect mi coz i learning to handle my feelings n emotions well.. i'll not be that emotional ger ever again... not that emotional ger that jane also scold mi for being too emotional.. yes.. haha.. if i wan i oso wan a mature u not a u who think u are mature.. anyway.. is not important now.. ok.. tml got work again.. haha.. but i feel relax while working =)haf to slp early.. although i always slp at 1+ am.. heez..

pHotOs & mOrE pHotOs..

took nice pictures today... haha.. which i think is nice la.. coz i very 自恋 oso.. take photo of myself.. hehe.. so also put some australia de photos in.. lazy to blog liao.. see pictures =)


[ i love tis photo.. love that hair.love that smile.it gave mi a very different feeling when seeing it.. i oso dunno why.. maybe u all dun feel so.. but i dun care.. haha.. i just like tis shot ^_^ ]


[ should i try new hairstyle..? hmmm.. ]


[ fat, round & ugly face =x haha ]


[ @ sUrfEr pArAdiSe (goLd cOaSt) & sHoPpiNg @ hArbOuRtOwN bEfOrE tHat ]


[ bOoSt jUiCe aDvErt|sEmEnt =x bY uS.. ]


-= mE & waLLaBy =-


-= mE witH kOaLa bEhiNd =-


-= mE cArRyiNg kOaLa =-


-= sCeNeRy @ gLaSsHoUsE mOuNtAiNs =-


-= mE @ sTrAwbErRy fArM witH sTrAwbErRiEs tHat wE p|cKeD =-
[ PYO = Pick Your Own ]


-= dRiViNg bAcK fRoM wArNeR.bRotHeRs mOviE wOrLd =-


-= diFfeReNt fEeLiNg agAiN.. hAha.. n|cE cAp.n|cE eArRiNgs.n|cE nEckLaCe.n|cE mOdeL =x hahax.. =-

FAT & UGLY.. tHat's mE..

lunch at Suntec today =) haha.. got my christmas de gift exchange present settled ^_^ yeah.. haha.. shop for that prezzie then must think think for unisex.. is SO MAFAN lorz.. ok.. but since i already got it liao.. so no need to go think n bother about it liao.. hehez.. suntec so big.. cfm got thingy to get de.. haha.. hope during the gift exchange.. the one who get my present will like it.. haha.. ok.. cannot sae or hint anything of wat i get.. haha.. wrapping all tis will be done nicely so u all wun guess correctly wat is in it de =) the wrapper might not mean that wat is inside is frm that wrapper de shop worz =x haha.. ok.. enough liao.. no more comment.. heez.. dun like my present then dun tell mi horz.. at least i got activity on x'mas eve.. if not i will stay at home n slp.. no date is also fine to me ba.. haha.. save money oso.. guess i kind of gettting use to be alone n sometime i prefer to be alone or not going out that kind ba.. anti-social? haha.. or 自闭症 =x i can dun go out for a no. of days.. onli stay in my room that kind.. duno wat i do but i just be alone.. dun tok to any1 also =x hehez..

training is tired.. but guess training is good.. at least i exercise abit la.. if not will get even fatter than now =( haiz.. i'm a FAT FAT person.. ok.. did run today.. but play 10 min of Center (C) wanna die liao =x partially oso bcoz i play GoalDefend(GD) for 10 mins before that la.. haha.. m i still as fit as last time? m i still able to last for a 15 mins quarter game as Center? can i still jump like last time? THE ANSWER IS NO ! ! haha.. coz realli get fat get old get lazy.. at least tt is wat i think i'm la.. haha.. ok.. enough of all tis.. haha,. FAT IS STILL FAT.. UGLY IS STILL UGLY.. nothing can change all tis.. face born like tis is like tis liao can change it to be pretty so just be ugly.. haha.. fat maybe can lost weight abit but then if BODY STRUCTURE is BIG.. BONES are BIG.. then oso cant get SMALLER oso wat =( haiz..

lunch at Marina Square today but i never eat.. my appetite become very small le.. eat abit very little will feel very full for very long.. haiz.. duno is good or bad.. best is i can slim down la.. =x ok.. sianz.. slping le..

THOMSON Prate House..

today went to jun yi's hse to play mahjong.. ok la.. talk cock session is also gathering rite.. haha.. then play till 11+ pm then ask my brother come n fetch mi then i drop him at our hse then i drove my father car went to THOMSON..! yes..!! finally i went to another part of tis island which i got no idea at all.. in australia bernard keep saying thomson got alot of good food n wat PRATA HOUSE de prata nice all tis.. TODAY.. i finally ate it.. actually ok la.. my friend tell mi the prata is crispy de n like onli that place haf tis kind of quality but then coz i haf been eating crispy de prata in malaysia so to mi is ok la.. nothing special or wat.. haha.. onli got mi junyi n roddy went la.. although we got abit of hard time trying to figure out which way lead to there although i haf GPS.. coz duno the actual location so can onli drive ard THOMSON de area.. finally they recognise the way keep saying here look very familiar horz.. got any feeling.. all tis rubbish.. haha.. ok la.. but finally get there coz play till quite play then jun's hse there de MAC which is 24hr got duno wat stupid maintenance thingy going.. but bcoz of that i went to thomson to eat.. haha.. like Mountain Tortise horz.. still got alot of place that is still in my list.. e.g. is SERANGOON de CHOMP CHOMP (wanna go even before i left for aust in july tis year de).. but oso no choice la.. coz i'm a east-sider plus when in SP always go Clementi or holland v. if not is go to Town area or City hall all these.. haha.. now got car.. is another case =x hehe.. then rod n jun funni lorz.. we wind down all out windows then they see people they scream n shout all tis.. haha.. but is good thing la.. at least they make mi laugh abit =) thanks brothers.. haha.. kind of miss secondary school days when hanging out with u all.. then missed poly days when hang out with shuting tzehao meijie they all.. haiz.. guess days will nv be back again.. can onli miss it n create more of tis memories that we all share.. i noe our friendship will never end.. friendship is realli different from love relationship.. i treasure both but now i onli got friendship to all my focus.. is happie n sad la.. but.. friends are always important --> someone told mi tis.. even if u got ur family ur boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife.. friends are still very important.. they belong to another category which cannot be compare with other relationship that u haf.. actually kinship, friendship, love relationship.. they are all diff n means differently but they should be balance..

ok.. enough of craps.. i need SUGGESTIONS ! ! ! PHONES SUGGESTION ! ! ! i prefer SONY ERICSSON la.. PREFERABLY not NOKIA ! ! so help mi ppl.. haha.. i wan nice phone... good phones.. price should not be a problem =x heez..

ok.. i need to go orr orr liao.. late le..

差一点 ??

there is 2 version.. 1st 1 is the meaningful n emo song while the 2nd 1 is the Singaporean song =x esp. ppl who love 4D n TOTO.. haha.. duno which is the better 1 =x haha




阿杜 - 差一点

差一点 你就是我的女人 差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人 抓不住幸福时分

遇上了错的人 渐渐的吻在那无心的嘴唇
感觉像一个旅程 走完了就分
错过了对的人 决定就只在那一秒 那一分
爱情的岔口 你是我等不到的路人

差一点 你就是我的女人 差一些 就和你共度一生
因为对的时间 对的人 就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点 你就是我的女人 差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人 抓不住幸福时分

错过了 对的人 决定就只在那一秒 那一分
如果没缘分 我也会固执的为你等
差一点 你就是我的女人 差一些 就和你共度一生
因为对的时间 对的人 就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点 你就是我的女人 差一些 手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人 抓不住幸福时分

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the crappy song



is realli lame n craps but is like kind of true lehz..

PHONES ! ! !

i going to buy new phone.. but i wanna buy SONY ERICSSON de.. any suggests ppl.. haha.. i need to get it in 2 weeks time.. please.. give mi some suggestion coz i'm away in australia so not very sure wat fone is newer or better.. so help mi k.. =) coz i got voucher to use.. n my plan is up.. although inital plan to give as x'mas gift to someone but tis plan is cancel le.. so i'll get myself a new fone instead.. haha.. love myself more yah =x hehez.. that wat u ppl tell mi de.. haha..

SO SUGGEST SOME SONY ERICSSON PHONES ! ! !



actually u love her alot alot if not you wun wan her as ur girlfriend since u sae that "if you have a girlfriend, you will wanna love her alot alot.." that is wat u sae n i noe u mean it.. n tis is wat is happening now. it is not the case that u sae u dun love anyone but u have her as ur girlfriend coz she realli love u n treat u very good n best of all she wun scold u n she is the kind of ger that u wan as ur girlfriend that y u 2 get together.. actually you love her de.. is not the case that u told mi that u never love anyone.. anyway.. is not my problem anymore le.. if she is the one that u feel is the right cup of tea for u.. then hope u will be happie with ur choice n be happie forever with tis tea that u drank thrice.. jiayou in everything u do ba.. she stood there for u whenever u need someone.. so u dun need anyone else le.. u wun see others le coz she is everything u got in front of u.. just her.. n u wun see anyone else in ur eyes le.. i will still zhu fu ni he ta.. i hope that u will be happie n xing fu.. that is my onli wish for my friend that u will be happie n xing fu always n always..


不属于你的，得到了，你也不会快乐。 属于你的，自然会回到你身边，但也要努力争取，好好把握。
他是否属于我？ 我是否属于他？ 他是谁？

其实，不是那个人不适合她，只是他太早出现了，而她尚未成熟

read tis article.. find it very meaningful n somehow feel kind of emo.. haha.. is chinese..

她和他是初恋情人，两人谈了 8 年恋爱。从 18 岁到 26 岁。初恋情人常常是缘分最被辜负的情人。年轻的时候，我们连自己也摆不平。总是有许多莫名其妙的误会，有些不该随意说出口的赌气话，有时还有一些不知道为什么会失控的心猿意马，还有一些对于爱情过渡的索求或要求完美爱情的想像，使得年少激情随着时光消磨殆尽。

其实，不是那个人不适合她（或他），只是他太早出现了，而她尚未成熟，还没有办法安稳于一份感情。

就在两人已经一起买了新房，就要论及婚嫁时，她有了另一个追求者：一个公司新同事。新人比旧人更懂得珍惜她、欣赏她，穷追不舍。她本来没有打算背叛盟约，可是当时，旧人不知体谅，处处和她呕气。

有一回，她只不过多说了两句，盛怒的他就对她吼道：“我再也受不了你了。”　她说，她要搬走。　“搬走最好，搬出去就不要回来！”　她就这样一去不回了。来帮她搬家的，就是那名新同事，对她千般殷勤，很快就表明非她莫娶。她答应了婚事。

这时候，他后悔了。虽然她离开之后，他也有女伴，不过，当喜帖在他手上颤抖时，他才发现，最爱的是她，没有办法遗忘的是她。

已经来不及了。只剩下包红包的权利。他单身了一段时间，只是不承认，他其实是在等她。越等越是绝望。 7 年年匆匆过去，她变成两个小孩的妈。第 8 年，他结婚了，有了自己的家庭。　第 9 年，她离婚了。婚姻并没有比爱情更经得起考验。她的婚姻因第三者介入而生变。恢复单身的她，厄运连连，母亲因癌症离世后，她发现自己也得了一样的病。

他知道了。两人这才再度见面。那一段时间，只要有空，他就会到医院看她。就算是没空，也有个不言的约定。每晚 11 点，他准时打电话给她。聊的事情很寻常，也常重复，不过是问候的话语。知道走过的路不可能回头，他也知道自己没办法回头。

就这样，每日不间断的问候。已经 5 年了，她说： 改变总是比承诺力量强大。像这样的小小承诺，不管欢喜悲伤，已经成为护持她的力量，就值得了当时的爱。

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读了很有感觉，尤其是　“其实，不是那个人不适合她，只是他太早出现了，而她尚未成熟”
feel that tis sentence is quite true for alot of ppl.. is not that your boyfriend or girlfriend DON'T SUIT YOU OR NOT YOUR CUP OF TEA, IS HE/SHE APPEAR TOO EARLY and YOU ARE NOT MATURE ENOUGH.. so.. dun always because of quarrel and say hurting stuff to each other n at that point of time, bcoz of angry, end the relationship which you 2 treasure n cherish alot.. and stop saying hurting n mean words to each other.. BOTH OF YOU WILL GET MATURE 1 DAY & REALISE THAT YOU 2 ARE REALLI SUIT FOR EACH OTHER.. quarrel is inevitable but dun make it a habit although people say "吵架是情绪" but always quarrel the relationship will get cold.. 吵多了，感情会淡的.. but if you have a boyfriend/girlfriend that dun quarrel with you everything also let you.. there must be some problems.. coz in a relationship cannot always 1 saying tis then the other everything also fine.. i haf a friend coz her boyfriend everything also let her.. make her feel very dominating n feel that the guy dun haf any stand.. this is part of the reason that they broke up.. but they suit for each other.. but the guy is too good.. good till make the ger feel that he dun haf any say in anything.. but afterall.. quarrel or disagreement is common in a relationship.. but please dun bcoz of that point of time too angry n say hurtful n mean words to him/her that u care coz in the future.. you will regret.. JIAYOU my friends.. 相爱容易相处难.. loving each other is easy but getting along for long is difficult but i believe you people can make it de =) dun be like mi worz.. haha..

MORAL of the story : DON'T SAY HURTFUL & MEAN WORDS to the ONE YOU LOVE AT THE POINT OF ANGER & DISAPPOINTMENT.. COOL DOWN & TALK THINGS OUT PEACEFULLY.. I BELIEVE LOVE is STRONG ENOUGH to BRING LOVING COUPLE THROUGH EVERYTHING ^_^ 我相信爱能包容一切，只要爱得深，就不怕爱的考验。

for mi.. i need to get more mature each day =) so when you come.. it will not be the case whereby i don't suit you (not your cup of tea) or you appear too early or i'm not mature enough.. i believe.. 1 day.. you will come and will be with mi forever =) it might take very long for that 1 day that you will appear but i'll wait coz if is you are the one that will share with mi all my happiness n pains.. then it is worth waiting for you.. as long as is worth waiting for, i will wait..

李玖哲 : 想太多 & 我会好好过

李玖哲 - 想太多

你笑着说 他是朋友 但你眼中太温柔
我的不安 那么沉重 只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中 属于我的角落
所以你说 我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中 属于我的角落
所以你说 我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

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李玖哲 - 我会好好过

你的爱很像泡沫 太轻或太重 都不在手中
我的爱就像天空 太放或太收 你都只是风
你来过却爱上自由 你出走我不问理由

我会好好过 等你再爱我
总有个角落 会让你想起我
我会好好过 等你在爱我
向右或向左 都有我站里守候

你留下很多 够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重 重是爱太多
当你回头 看到的一定是我

我会好好过 等你再爱我
总有个角落 会让你想起我
我会好好过 等你在爱我
向右或向左 都有我站在这里守候