thanks for everything..
thanks for listening to my complaining..
and always asking me how's my day..
thanks..
really appreciate this =)



looking forward to 5th December 2008..
though the days might be short..
but i guess is better then none..

my mood now is super terrible..
i'm super sad now..
just now almost wanna cry out liao..
but i hold my tears..
but i dunno i can tahan till when..

why am i always been aim..?
why i'm always picked on..?
haiz..
super emo now..

i'm suppose to be analyzing my x-ray reflectivity's data..
but there isn't results to analyze coz the range was not long enough..
then now become my fault for that..
starting do a long range de..
then i was told that i'm waste time on no result..
might as well shorten the range..

then now what..
my range of data was too little to analyze anything..
is my fault for not measuring it long enough..
so i wasted 2 weeks on that rubbish result..
or useless result..
haiz..
things don't seem well since i came back from diving..
i going to lose that motivation n spirit le..
doing work but ppl sae u not doing..
kind of tired le..
it makes me wonder..
is it a wrong decision..


want to tell *ahem abt tis..
but i afraid i will affect ur mood..
i guess i dun tell better ba..
but i just feel very 'wei qu' now..
very very..
how can i tell you but i'm not feeling alright..
especially you are not even here..
haiz..
and i know you will never know abt tis unless someone tell u..
coz u dun read my blog..

Lovesickness

相思病

where are you..?

currently in sch..
super tired..
super no mood..
haiz..
kind of kena 'scolding' frm supervisor..
actually is not scolding la but is say me lorz..
haiz..
can't i just take some break..
why must i always show face in uni..
but with the whole day rotting n doing nothing..
can't i just dun come to sch n stay at home then..
haiz..
but y is it just picking on me..
someone else is worse but nv kena 'say'
haiz...

feel like complaining or just to talk to someone..
but like nobody is there..
haiz..
not in a good mood now..
super affected mood..



where are you..?
haiz..
why are you not here when i really need someone..
你知道我现在的心情有多差，有多糟糕吗 ?
haiz..
真的很想你 ......

i'm finally back from Cairns =)
back from Diving in Great Barrier Reef in Cairns..
is very nice..
see lots of marine animals n reefs underwater..

is kind of tiring..
i'm suppose to be in uni now de but due to me being lazy..
i'm still at home =x
haha..

kind of bored le..
everyone went home le =(
ziyang they all went New Zealand..
so so so boring..
going to go to lab soon le.
but i guess today will be a slack day with no results..
coz the instrument that i need to use is booked till friday..
which mean..
i cant do much things now..
sian ar..

alright..
got to go bath then get ready to go uni le..
the study mood is not here..
the holiday mood is not gone..

and did i mention..
i bought 2 Canterbury de long sleeve tee..
which cost me quite alot =x
but i think is nice..
heez..

Cairns (Great Barrier Reef) - Open Water & Adance Open Water =)

currently in Cairns..
just finish my Open Water & Advanced Open Water Dive Course..
which take 6D5N to complete..
diving is fun and nice..
but can is scary at time..
but now as an Advanced Open Water Diver,
i can dive up to 30 meter =)
when Open Water Diver can onli dive to 18 meter depth..

just get back to Cairns..
stay aboard for 4D3N..
where i dive at the Great Barrier Reef =)
heez..
is super nice..
saw shark =)
saw turtle, giant clam and stuff..
is realli nice..
heez..

leaving Cairns on 23rd Nov morning..
oh ya..
i manage to pass the 10 min of trend water/float..
as for my 200 meter swim..
i think i was ask to swim for 400 meter instead..
i 'eat snake'
haha..
have to swim 12 laps lorz..
i will die for sure..

anyway..
now everyone like not in Brisbane lorz..
some went back home le (Singapore)
some went to Cairns (which is me)
some went to New Zealand for 2 weeks..!! (Ian, Kim, Yongsheng & Ziyang)
some are doing summer so stay in Brisbane..
everyone is enjoying before result is out..
as for me..
no result..
which mean no holidae, no summer..
got to get back to lab on 24th Nov (monday)..
so fast lorz..!!
haiz..
nvm..
faster do alot alot of work then can relax when i back in Singapore..

ok..
got to go le..
think my card not money le..
scare it suddenly log mi off..
see ya..
Cairns is nice..
the reef is super nice =)



hmm..
kind of miss you..
haha..
kind of weird feeling isn't it..?

Raven

RAVEN
what a coincidence.

Raven Street
used to be where i stayed 1 yr ago
when i first arrived in Brisbane..

just find it funny..
what a 巧合 is that..

anyway..
is in sch now..
going to do some lab work le..
is a tiring week..
slping late waking up early..
coffee is what i need everyday to keep my eyes open =x
looking forward to this Saturday..
I'm flying to Cairns =)
Dive Dive Dive
here i come =p

DIVE COURSE

quite a few days since my last blog entry..
been a busy week..
having to do lab work and find info for my DIVE course..

i'm going Cairns to dive =)
to get my OPEN WATER + ADVANCED OPEN WATER DIVE CERTIFICATE
i'm going to GREAT BARRIER REEF (i think) to dive =)
heez.. i'm so looking forward to that..
trying to achieve alot during this semester..
got my MOTORCYCLE LICENSE le..
now working toward my DIVE LICENSE =)
but then..
i still training on my trend water skill..
swimming 200m isn't a problem now..
is trend water for 10 mins is the problem..
haiz..
anyway..
still trying to go for more swimming n trend water "lesson"
so that i can learn my dive =)

i'm going Cairns from 15th to 23rd Nov..
is a 6D5N course..
start my course from 16th Nov..
hope things go smoothly..
then i get my cert..
then can go for leisure dives with friends le..
heez..

moment of thoughts...

in sch now..
is 2.32 am in Brisbane..
but i'm not at home..
i'm not sleeping..

haiz..
due to me not being discipline n determined enough..
i didn't went to school on Friday..
so I got to make up the time n lab work that i missed out..
due to my LOVE for sleeping..
i onli get into the campus at 7+ pm..

so i trying to work throughout the night..
is dangerous to go home now too..
although i feel like going home to sleep =x
but then my friend just told me the incident in Sydney..
with an ang mo guy taking knife into an apartment..
and rape the gers and force 1 of the guy to rape the gers too..

haiz..
now make mi wanna go home also cannot..
although i always go home late at night..
alone =x

i'm so hungry..
i need food..
but i got no car..
i cant go anywhere..
i'm tired..
but i told myself that tonite i got to finish up my experiment..
haiz..
how..
no motivation again..
no discipline again..
haiz..


i wanna learn diving..
but..
i got to learn to TREND water for 10 MINUTES..
and SWIM 200 Metre..
haiz..
how..?
is so tiring to trend water..
is so tiring to swim for 200m..
haiz..
but i wanna learn diving..!!



sometime i do wonder..
who will be reading this..?
sometime i do wonder..
did i miss him..?
did i let him walk pass my life without realising..?
sometime i do wonder..
who's the right one..?
but sometime i just wonder..
maybe all the problems lie on me..
I just don't suit for that..
sometime i just hope to get a hug..
sometime i just hope for that pat on my head..
sometime i just hope i was hugged tight to feel that i'm not lonely..
sometime i just unconsciously called out ur name..
sometime i just hope..
nothing happened to me..
and sometime i just hope..
life will be better..
sometime..
i just hope for a shoulder for me to lean on when i'm tired..
but most of the time..
i found myself waking up alone..
in disappointment..

i guess i'm a perfectionist..
i do hope to get things done perfectly..
i do set high expectation of myself and of others..
although i always seem to be slacking..

haiz..
maybe is late in the night..
starting to get emotional..
somehow..
i start to miss the one that i shouldn't miss..
looking at my phone..
wondering will anyone call..?
or will anyone SMS me..?
but somehow..
it always appeared that the one i'm hoping for..
will never call or SMS..
the one that i hope will never call or SMS..
will just show their name on my phone..

what am i waiting for..?
what am i looking forward to..?
what am i hoping for..?
i did wonder..
are you the one..?
i do know the answer..
i did tell myself numerous times..
actually..
you don't seem to suit me..
or maybe should say..
i don't suit you..
i'm not your cup of tea..