i miss him... i realli miss him..

...The 18th day without dear dear by my side...
没有你在身边的第 18 天
分手的第 3 天


how.. i miss him again le.. i realli miss him.. even though he hurt mi deeply but y will i still miss him.. 我真的很想你.. r u realli going to leave mi? leave mi alone by myself.. can u tell mi what u feel.. can u please tell mi.. i think u wun miss mi ba.. u will onli think of mi that u hurt mi but u wun miss mi like the past le ma? can u tell mi how u feel wat u wan.. u just push mi away.. i didn't even noe what i can do.. u just leave mi n i haf no option to choose.. i cant do anything to mend this.. u dun even give mi the choice.. i keep telling myself not to contact u even though i realli miss u.. u realli care for mi u realli love me? can u tell mi what u thinking what u feel? 你真的就这样放手了吗？你可以告诉我一切吗？你真的要丢下我不管我，不要我了吗？你知不知道我有多爱你，你忍心就这样放开我吗？你忍心就这样放弃，就这样结束我们的感情吗？真的没有感觉了吗？还是你知想休息一下？你能不能告诉我，不要放我一个人在这里。你说你会去认真的去考虑我们的爱情，你真的会吗？还是另一个谎言？你能不能告诉我真实的你在想什么？我真的好辛苦。

i been telling myself to study hard.. u noe it is very tough to hang on.. from the start it is very hard le.. but i hang on bcoz of alot of reasons but the main reason is u.. i dun wan to make u sacrifice for nothing.. i dun wanna bring our months of suffering to waste.. i dun wan u to be disappointed.. 不管多累多辛苦，我都在撑，我一直告诉我自己我一定要撑下去。我告诉我自己不管多累，多辛苦，多困难，多想放弃，我还是要撑下去，我们一定能熬过的。我还在努力的撑，可是我们熬不过去吗？ 我想和你分享我的成绩，我的成就，让你知道你有多重要，多有影响力，有多伟大，是个多好的男朋友。你让你的女朋友成为一个令你骄傲的人，你是她成功背后的男人，一直在他背后支持着她，是她的支柱。希望能在毕业典礼上，让你为我感到骄傲，想和你分享这一切。想和我爱的人分享一切。


everything is a lie


16 days to revision week. 25 days to 1st exam paper. 35 days to last exam paper.
38 days to bAcK tO SiNgApOrE ...
你还会等我吗？ 你会在等我吗？？