nv blog for 2 weeks le.. my blog is dying soon =x haha.. but then guess not much people come here oso.. so.. is ok that my blog is in dying mode =x haha.. ok.. this is important thingy to sae.. i got $80 worth of fine in 2 days..!!! summon.. i guess is spell like that rite.. ok.. nvm.. anyway.. i kena suman coz of my blur-ness plus suay-ness.. can forget to put coupons.. well done rite.. haha.. so i went to buy 4D todae.. my car plate no. 8882.. but it NEVER open.. 3rd prize no. is 8883..!!! argghhh... suay rite.. haiz.. sad sad.. ok.. nvm.. that mean those money dun belong to mi de.. so.. nvm.. haha..

ok.. will update again coz i'm slping soon.. recently been shopping n shoppping getting broke broke BROKE..!!!

ok.. nitez..

I SCRATCHED THE CAR..!!!

I SCRATCHED THE CAR..!!! SUPER SUPER SUPER SERIOUS.... DAMN DAMN JIALAT..!!!

haiz... i duno wat to sae le.. no mood.. 1st time so serious till i no appetite no mood.. even cried.. haiz.. i duno who to talk to.. keep asking myself how can tis happen to mi.. haiz.. i noe is coz the window blur then i tot i pass le.. then knocked n scratched..!! arghhh... STUPID STUPID..!!!! sickening window.. sickening yenwei.. damn dulan with myself lorz..

i'm going emo liao.. haiz... i'm damn affected by this incident liao... haiz.. super sad.. duno why i feel like calling u to talk to u.. but i noe i shouldnt call u somemore ur exam is next week n most importantly.. u r not my dear anymore.. i cannot haf anything just call u although i realli wanted to.. i super stunned super blur.. duno wat to do.. duno who to talk.. last time whenever i got problem i cfm approach u.. but now i noe i cannot.. coz ur dear is not mi.. i noe i haf to learn to handle everything by myself..

i'm super sad super no mood.. super emotional now..!! haiz...

2 pair of LEVI's JEANS =PpP

went to Parkway Parade for dinner todae.. supposely aft dinner can go home le but then father wanna send our car for polishing n cleaning.. so end up the person sae need to wait till 8.30 to get the car.. so.. aft dinner went to walk walk to look for Chinese New Year clothes while my father drive his own car go off to play mahjong.. so went walk walk at quite a number of shops but then nth interest mi.. then at Bossini my brother wanna buy the shirts n jeans so i also nth to do so flip n browse around.. haha.. end up i saw a black shirt.. kind of formal wear that kind.. then since my mother is there then she sae wanna buy faster horz.. she sign with credit card which mean is my father pay n i no need to pay =x haha.. so i just get that black shirt which i dun even noe will i realli wear.. then end up they go n redeem the gift.. i went to levi's shop.. then i saw tis Levi Lady design de jeans.. wanna get but onli got size 25.. which is too small for mi =( haha.. i fat ma.. so end up i see see then since i can dun need pay i cfm grab tis chance la.. if not i buy levi jean my pay gone liao lorz.. so i got another pair of levi jean.. starting still deciding size 26 or 27 de.. then the jean(levi lady) de material is stretchable de.. then my mother sae wash a few time the jean will loosen.. so end up i get the 26 inch de.. then levi got promotion buy regular item get to buy levi's cooper jeans at 50%.. then my brother n sister looking la.. then i saw another pair of jeans.. Levi's Red Tab.. haha.. i try liao.. then very tempted by it.. the Levi's Lady de is straight cut the Levi Red Tab is skinny jean.. so different cutting.. so i tell my mother.. that pair she pay i pay tis pair myself but i noe end up i dun need pay de coz credit card is my father de money =x heez.. i bought both pair of jeans is $169.50 per pair (which mean $339 on 2 jeans) =x heez.. so i save alot of my pay money on CNY clothes although i still wanna get a dress or skirt.. at least i wanna buy a pair of denim skirt la.. n i need tops also.. so tis weekend is shopping time =) heez.. coz my pay is finally coming in aft so so long.. i owe alot of ppl money lorz.. my pay come pay back to ppl left little bit nia.. haiz.. but nvm.. at least got money..

i wanna go shopping liao.. haha.. i wanna buy shoes.. talking about shoes.. i was clearing some of my stuff.. i saw that pair of Nike Limited Edition de Sneakers that you buy for mi.. i bring it back from Australia.. haben wear it once yet.. i dun feel like wearing it.. it is realli very nice.. i scare i will dirty it.. if anything happen to that shoes my xin will hen tong hen tong.. but last time u always sae.. "if i buy for u u dun wear then the shoes buy le also no use le.." but tis is the last pair of shoes you get for mi.. n i noe u spend alot of money n effort in getting that pair of shoes for mi.. haiz.. i dunno when i will wear it.. it make mi rmb of you.. but even without it.. i still rmb u everyday.. haiz.. even in dreams also.. i got a weird dreamz tis morning.. very very weird n scary dreams.. you r in it but there is others in it too.. but the details of the dream i guess i dun need to sae but i can sae is scary...

ok.. let pray i dun haf such a scary dream anymore.. i should haf a good dream todae since i got myself 2 pair of LEVI's JEANS =PpP

get very emotional todae.. but not in front of others.. on the way home on bus todae.. listening to the songs in the creative zen vision W that u bought for me.. listening to songs.. the lyrics.. the songs.. brought back alot of memories.. haiz.. i realli duno how.. i noe i should let go of this relationship but the love i have for you nv go away.. not at all.. although i'm very happie all this while but all the laughter n joy that my friends brintg to me jus cant replace the past happiness n laughter you brought to mi.. the happie that i haf all this while is not wat others seen.. 内心里.. i miss u.. i realli miss u.. but i noe my love isn't wat u need.. u dun need me.. i must think for you.. i'm not wat u wan so is better for mi not to bother you.. somemore ur exam is approaching n i noe u wanna do well for tis sem.. i dun wanna be a burden to u n i noe no matter how u feel.. there is her by ur side supporting you alwayz.. you feel stress she will help you to de-stress.. you get slack or lazy she will push u.. you get tired from study she will let u rest n wake u up again to ask you to push u again.. although u already not by my side le.. i will still push myself to study hard de.. my friends are waiting for mi to graduate n return.. my friends are waiting for me to graduate so they can fly over to attend my graduation.. i'll be very touched & happie if during my graduation my friends come over.. coz graduation is onli once in a lifetime if i not going to further my studies anymore.. n somemore i just anyhow mention ask them wanna come anot they sae if can they will come de.. as for you.. i dun think u will come ba.. but i will look forward for graduation that day de.. i hope to share my fruit of labour n hardwork with everyone that care for mi..

i'm in DILEMMA now!!! can people give mi advice.. i starting dun wanna study Honours de.. then my senior n colleagues sae if i can study i should continue to take my Honours coz a normal Degree cert is too common in Singapore le.. but then my cousin ask mi "is there a need n market to spend another 1 year time n money..?" ask mi to come back test market 1st.. is realli need then take Master.. then my brother was saying "yes, degree cert is very common but if i get honours also mean that the company need to pay mi more coz i'm a honours student.. then the company will rather hired a degree holder n pay lesser.." haiz... can someone tell mi how.. initially i didnt wanna take de coz i realli feel australia very sian n boring i wanna come back to where all my friends are.. but now i think getting a Honours is better but now i wanna go but wat people is saying is pulling mi back.. haiz.. what should i do..?? can ANYONE PLEASE TELL ME...!!!



你仍然是我最爱的人… 我想这一生你都会是…

i rEbOnd & cUt mY hAiR

i cut my hair =) heez.. rebonded it also.. haha.. hairstyle got change abit but still long hair.. just something diff.. haha.. duno wat comments will u ppl give.. some sae weird some sae nice.. some sae look more energetic..

here's the photo...



Oh My God.. my fAce look super super chubby & round =( haiz.. but my new haircut nice mahz??

short frindge.. hmm.. should take a better photo de.. but feeling slpy now.. i'm going to slp le.. tired.. yesterday chihan de birthday celebration then todae nv slp enough also.. sleeping super early tonite to ensure i got enuff energy for the coming week of work...


please jiayou.. u r not useless & please dun give up.. dun give up on yourself when others never.. even if others give up on you, you must not give up on yourself..

happie 21st birthday to Hui xian..

some photos that i took during the AGM of LLAB10 at Bee Ling's house.. her house is very very very big.. and she got 3 dogs.. i onli took photo with 2(the middle size & the big size).. nv took with the smallest one coz it bite.. the big one is realli very big.. from the photo you can see liao.. then the middle size one very cute.. and the other photo is the car that i've been driving everyday since it comes =x heez.. but then is our house 2nd car la.. it does not belong to mi but to the family.. haha.. but it seem like i always using it.. but brother is back liao.. think driving everyday couldn't be possible liao..

ok.. photos...


-= the dog is super big =-


-= i like this dog coz it doesn't bite and it is not naughty =-


-= nice photo.. heez.. taken by me.. i like its colour =-


-= here is the car.. Honda City.. Car plate is SJC 8882 J.. used to be SFW 1676 B de but my father changed it =-

so people if happened to see SJC 8882 J on the road.. it might be mine.. hehez... said Hi to mi worz.. but it might be my brother driving it.. haha.. ok la.. since having this car.. it seems so convenience to go out but finding parking slot is the troublesome part.. but.. going out till late and go out far far also not a problem =) heez.. supper anywhere anytime ^_^ ok.. can find mi out for supper n catch up with u guys..

ok.. is 2nd Jan le.. wish Miss Wan Huey Shyan.. HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ! ! ! just got home from her birthday celebration.. nothing much but haf a great time together gathering with secondary sch mates =) is great to have times like this with friends which i didn't did during the past 1 year plus.. do miss the 1 year plus time but i'm looking forward for coming days months & years coz i noe i will spend it well n enjoy it..

i miss you..

YEAR 2008..!!

Today is 1st January 2008.. the 1st day of a new year.. alot of things happened in 2007.. 2007 was a very bad year to alot of us.. especially my classmates n mi.. 3 of my classmates lost their father.. is very sad but is life we noe we haf to carry on with our life.. for mi.. i should wrap up my yesterYear & set my New Year Resolution for 2008.. i nv set resolution before coz i dun believe in it.. but it is just like setting target in my life.. for this year..

todae is the 100th day without you by my side(since u left australia)... 没有你在身边的第 100 天 is also 分手的第 85 天.. is stupid rite but i duno why am i still counting on & on.. hoping 1 day i wun have to count anymore or 1 day someone will walk up to mi n ask mi to count up another thing instead.. but all this 85 days.. there are tears, smilez, laughter, silly thoughts.. everything is in it.. the starting 2 months was not great at all.. there is onli tears that accompany mi everyday.. no smile or laughter from mi.. but i realise that if i continue to be so down n upset.. my friends around mi will be affected too.. i need to stand up.. need to wake up.. be strong be independent.. start to learn to love myself.. i nv noe how to love myself but i guess i'm getting better le ba.. i'm changing to be a better person.. changing bad points that you did mention to mi before but changing not bcoz of you but for a better "me" =) actually i did think about all those words that you said to mi but i realise.. watever you sae contradict or i think you phrase it in the way that u dun wanna hurt mi but u dun mean watever u sae.. but i guess is not important to mi.. i noe you love her alot alot (not like wat you told mi) n she love you alot.. she is the cup of tea you wan n the perfect one that you wan.. she qian jiu you alot.. she treat you very good.. you dun love her also very weird ba.. but to mi.. you are happie you are safe n healthy.. nothing matter more... i've learn to love someone in another way which i nv thought i could have done.. but thanks for everything that you have bring to mi.. thank you..

thank you my friends out there.. for supporting mi for caring n concerning mi during my down period in my life.. you all realli brighten up my days.. there is someone i must realli thank you.. SHUTING.. xie xie ni.. thanks for being there for mi even when i'm in australia.. realli thank you.. i noe i did make you guys disappointed by the silly incident i did n make you guys worried for mi.. i wun do that le.. i must learn to love myself more instead of onli loving someone else.. although i still didn't did wat you guys realli wan mi to do to forget him n dun love him n to let go.. but i'm already letting go in some sense.. coz i realise i could love someone from another direction from another way..

i'm leaving australia in less than 2 months time.. haiz.. time realli pass very fast.. but i might not be coming back to singapore soon.. i might choose to stay there to continue my Honours or maybe i will choose to stay there to work.. i duno.. this thought does appear in my mind.. but if can i guess i will choose to come back in end july tis year aft my graduation.. realli hope can have my friends and stuff over to my graduation n share my joy.. but it is too expensive to fly to Brisbane le.. although always in my heart & mind i hope you will be there but it isnt wat i wan in the starting coz now the 身份 that you appear will be different le.. n there isn't any need or a must for you to fly all the way there le even you did promise before.. but is ok.. i noe is my future.. even if nobody appear during my graduation.. i should also be happie coz i going to get my degree cert.. just hope tis coming semester will be a good one.. no more crazy stuff that make mi go crazy n wanna give up on my studies..

ok.. going off soon le.. huixian de birthday celebration.. her birthday tml.. but not feeling well now.. haiz.. actually dun feel like going le.. but is 21st birthday.. must go.. present everything get le.. so later just go can le coz present with wee kiang they all..


you are always the one i love & i care for. i don't need you to be with mi coz i noe someone is beside you le.. take care pls.. pls take care of your health.. you should know how much you meant to mi.. but i know how much she meant to you n how little i meant to you..