sometime i know i might not do thing the correct way..
but can you stand in my shoes and feel for me...

do things differently.
think things differently.
see things differently.
that's why we are different.

ok. lame..

Leaving Australia in 9 days =(

in 9 days time i'm flying home..
come to think of it, i have already been in Australia for 2 years and 2 months..
time really flies..
i have complete my Bachelor and Honours when it just feel that yesterday i just fly to Brisbane alone on the plane to this weird place where there are only 2 faces that i know (xiaoying and michelle)
but now.. i made so many friends although more than 80% are Singaporean when I am suppose to know more Caucasian but i guess i know only 5 but none of them I am close with..
so what for i come overseas to study to know more Singaporean..?? weird right..

hmm..
i still have not finish packing my stuff to ship them back..
for the time being i already have 6 boxes of stuff and I believe i will have about 8 boxes at the end..
and i am thinking of my parent expression and comments when they see all my stuff..
i believe i will get nagging and scolding but then after all these, i still got all these stuff send back to me =x heez..

i made a to-do list before i get back to SG but i believe i might not be able to do them all but hopefully as much as possible ba..

To-do list: Harbour Town (Gold Coast), Direct Factory Outlets (DFO Airport), Belgian Beer Cafe (mussels), Oishi sushi @ Sunny Bank, havaianas flip flop, dinner at Jun Japanese-Malaysian Cuisine (chilli crab and stuff), Korean food (Hot Pot, BBQ etc), Cold Rock Ice-cream, Baskin and Robin Ice-cream...!!!!

RANT RANT RANT..!!

today I have mood swing again.. haiz.. sometime i just get very emotional.. dun ask me what's wrong, i also don't know what wrong.. am i angry with you? or disappointed? or sad? i just dunno.. i know i shouldn't complain.. compare to others, i am fortunate to have someone special there for me.. but then.. some time i just feel.. you weren't there at all.. you are always busy with your stuff and i know i must be understand coz you are a student.. studies are obvious more important.. but can i be selfish abit.. we rarely go out.. you rarely have time for me except maybe dinner time (only if you have time for dinner) or maybe just before you go to sleep, maybe just that 15-20 mins before you fall into deep sleep..

i always complain you dun have time for me..but i know on the other hand i must be understanding coz i know you are this kind of person.but sometime sometime, i really hope you can do something special or maybe surprise me once in a very very long while.. i nv ask you go out dating with me coz i know you got no time.i nv ask you out for movie or dinner coz i know even though i ask, i know what is the reply..sometime or most of the time, i'm just waiting.. waiting for you to be back.. but sometime when you are back, i also dunno what's the feeling.. just like one or few of our friends mention, only i can stand you.. only i can take it that my boyfriend (you) for not having time for me.. actually, i cant stand it also.. but i know i need to be a good girlfriend.. be understanding and not demanding so much time from you coz you rarely have time... haiz.. dun ask me what's wrong or what i'm feeling.. i really dunno.. just very confused of my feeling..

you are not a romantic guy.. you are also not those that understand words with underlining meaning.. you also dun get hints.. you also dun take notes of details and pay attentions to special stuff.. so what kind of guy are you..? i did ask myself.. we all know you are those rational guy who only promise things that you know you can do.. but have you ever realise you never make any promise to me.. that why i know i never ask you to do stuff, i rather depend on myself.. not promising things that you can't do is a good point.. but sometime, i just feel that our relationship lack of something.. i dunno what is it.. comparing all the couples that we both know, we know you are like none of them, that make it you.. but sometime a girlfriend will hope her boyfriend to be speical.. you dun sweet talk. you dun buy small little gift. you dun get my hint at times. you dun spend much time with me. you dun do special little gift. you dun promise me anything.

i know you might think that by saying these do i mean that there is nothing good about you. of course NOT..!!  i know you are a good guy. i know your good point but sometime  i do hope you could be better.. or maybe i shouldn't be that demanding.. or maybe is just that now i'm too bored, that's why i feel it this way. i don't know.. whatever it is, this entry is just for me to rant.. it just for me to say out what i'm feeling coz i know i'm not very good in expressing my feeling and emotions and i know i might lose my temper when trying to explain things to you. is not that i'm impatience is just that sometime things can be express clearly with words you know.. sometime i do hope you can understand my feelings just by a few words and not asking me to express myself coz i just cant.. i do hope you could be like my friends that could understand my thinking and feeling without repeatedly asking me the same question like "what's wrong" coz i really cant explain.. i know it takes time for one to understand one emotion and feeling.. but i really hope soon you understand me and i hope i will understand you too...

darling, i still love you.. is just that sometime i get very pissed off with myself for not being able to convey my message and the meaning that i want to tell you or maybe i just very pissed off or disappointed why you just dun understand what i'm trying to tell you.. that is why i lose my temper with you cause as my boyfriend, you should understand me much more better than anyone except my close friends like shuting n janice.. so the next time i lost my temper it might be because i am angry with myself not being able to express my thoughts to you or maybe it could be really you who make mi angry.. cause if i keep trying to tell you the same thing over and over again.. then i just cant understand why you cant understand what i'm trying to say.. i know i need to be patience with you coz you still don't get my message or meaning everytime.. hopefully in the near future you will get it..

ok.. enough of my ranting, time to bath.. and i'm feeling much better after typing all these out but i don't know when will you see this.. but dont be angry. i'm not wrong this to complain about you.. i'm just trying to let myself see things in 2 different sides.. i wan to be a understanding girlfriend but on the other hand, i wan to be selfish at times too =x that is why i can be angry with myself coz when i wanna be selfish, the understanding me know that is my own fault so i shouldn't be angry.. but when i am understanding, the selfish me will ask why shouldn't i be selfish.. sigh.. it is just contradicting..

Complain complain...!!!

complain time..!!

this entry is specially for Sean Chong Yong Sheng..!!
so angry with you..
people purposely continue to stay in aussie till my visa's last valid..
but then..
you you.. never even got time to accompany me..!!
arghhhh..
so angry..
everyday wait till 2+3 am for you to come home but by then i already tired le..
plus when you come back from uni, you still doing your sch work..!!
sometime wanna ask you to accompany me out shopping, walk walk or what i also dun dare..
or maybe should say i know if i ask you, i also know then answer so i might as well dun ask..
also dunno why i am still her, i might as well go back home (singapore)..
sometime make mi so angry, maybe i should have went home that time..
you always don't have time for me..
so angry so angry..
i know you got assignments to submit so i also got no choice but just let it be..
school work is more important - this one i know.
but sometime just feel abit unfair..!!
arghh..
but i know i guess nag nag n scold scold but after that i will feel better though NOTHING change..
but nevermind, i'm getting use to it..
that's why i never jio you go out =x
okok.. time to cool down..
know you tonight got to chiong finish you assignment which is due tml..
jia you ba..

as for me..
is another lonely day and night..
haiz.. so sian and boring..
everyone around got school work/assignments..
i'm the only free one..
so even wanna ask ppl to go out..
i doubt there is any coz everyone is busy..
haiz..

Yong Sheng Scam Day (YSSD) 05/09/09 =)

hmm.. seem like is the template that i was using previously got problem that why lead to my blog not showing up.. change to a simple template to try out and seems that it works.. so i will keep to this simple template first before i start customizing my own template =) heez..

yesterday was a very nice day.. i was suppose to 'fly' back to singapore yesterday at 2.45 PM flight.. but but.. i did went to the airport, i did 'check-in' my luggage and i did 'fly'.. heez.. before i head to the airport, i already did early 'check-in' of luggage to Depper street (Shi Jian's place) =).. and after that send me off at airport, i 'fly' to Club Mitre =pPp with all these plans, we all success in SCAMMING Yong Sheng Chong.. i arrived in 'Singapore" at about 11.30 PM.. the 'Singapore' that we are talking is La Dolce Vita (Italian Coffee place at Milton).. and best of all, i call yongsheng and tell him i going to La Kopi then he ask me go where la then i tell him beside him.. and guess what, he didn't even bother to look beside him when I have already stand beside him to talk on the phone for about 30 sec to 1 min le and he did not feel it at all.. but it was a fun SCAM =)

so it makes 5th September 2009 an official Yong Sheng Scam Day (YSSD)..!! thanks everyone who participate in this scamming process and i know all of you enjoy to Scam YongSheng =) haha..

and thanks all those who gave me my belated birthday present and farewell gift: Ipod Nano (product Red).. is nice nice.. thank you.. is what i need to motivate myself to go jogging alone.. thanks everyone =)

still feeling very tired aft all these days of irregular sleeping hours and trying to pack my stuff before i " fly off " yesterday.. body clock isn't working very well now.. sleep very late at about (2+ 3am) but can wake up at 8+ am in the morning then cant slp back le.. haiyo.. sian..