chui chui chui...

submitted my introduction to research de report.. i can onli sae is super chui ba.. i didnt manage to send a draft to Michael to edit before i submit as i''m onli able to finish my report at 3.15pm where the submission is at 4pm.. haiz.. i guess i cant realli get good grade for this course ba.. if get a grade 5 i think i happy le..

guess is my own fault ba.. always do work at the last min.. slpt at 3am in the morning and wake up at 9+10 am.. miss the 8am lesson again.. i think i realli going to flung that course le.. haiz.. now making alot of plan for my Honours.. looking for hse all tis.. what happen if i cant manage to study honours =x haiz.. chui..

i dunno la.. tis sem i nv seem to be studying.. i'm too slack.. realli too slack le.. miss lectures.. do last min work.. always reach submission date then start doing it.. i guess is my time management ba.. i nv put my heart in.. where did it go..? i noe i need to start studying le.. exam in 2 weeks time.. i need to realli jiayou le.. still got another assignment to do.. submission on fri.. just started.. hope it will goes well n i'm able to finish it soon.. i need plenty plenty of time to study coz i miss too much lectures le.. i need times to understand the lecture notes myself le.. haiz.. dunno la..


这感觉很辛苦，很痛苦，希望一切能尽早结束……


N.e.H.z.O.a.I.x

解铃还需系玲人

解铃还需系玲人

30% done onli.. DIE DIE DIE..!!!

still in sch doing report.. guess is good to do work in sch especially with limited quota used to access the internet.. i left 10MB but now onli left 5MB.. haha.. so.. i can onli do work cant realli sign in msn or surf net all tis.. but is 10.30pm now.. tml got to submit my research de report but i onli 30% done.. haiz.. just got to discuss with ian gentle how he wan my report to be like n stuff.. so i onli got 1 day plus to get it done.. but i need to send it to michael (PhD student) to edit my english n flow of my report coz my english suck.. ok.. is time to really practise english.. must speak more english write more and read more.. yes.. if not i realli 'chui'.. haha.. that is not english.. ok.. got to continue my report le.. tonite is dun need to slp de.. let see whether i will go for tml 8am lesson anot.. if go mean i do my report till then can go lesson.. if not i slp at 4+5 am then i cfm wun be able to wake up de.. but got to train myself to slp less le.. coz exam is coming.. i need time n more time.. if not i cfm cant study finish de..

ok.. got to continue my work le..


i miss you... how are you le..? waiting for your news and updates from ur life..

Countdown to Examination =(

Countdown to Examination

14 days to CHEM3004
18 days to CHEM3003
22 days to CHEE4301

23 days to Holiday Mood

my kneecap is very painful.. dunno wat is the cause.. was sitting down then wanna stand up then feel the pain in the knee bone.. then cant stand.. so faster sitting down.. dunno wat is the cause.. is at the lower knee joint there.. haiz.. dunno.. might be old injury.. but i cant rmb is which kneecap that i injured before.. aiya.. dunno la.. can onli leave it as it is le.. got to go and bath.. is almost 1 am now.. tml lesson at 9am and i got to rush my research report.. got to stay up late le.. tml must go for lesson.. yes.. i'm must.. cann0t skip n pon le.. if not exam realli is die die die die...

lost the key to open up

guess i start to love the feeling of being alone ba.. being antisocial and not socialise.. i guess i start to like the feeling of being alone.. i'm afraid of being alone but now.. i'm getting use to it..

i'm afraid of the feeling of being abandon.. i dun wanna go thru the feeling of feeling lost and being forsake.. so i choose to be alone n in my world.. is not good i know.. is not the right attitude i noe.. u wanna scold mi or sae mi i also noe.. but i'm feeling uneasy with socialising now.. i feel better n more comfortable being alone.. introvert.. u wanna sae mi ba.. but u noe i'm not like tis de.. but sorry.. i just cant be back wat i used to be for the time being.. i making everyone disappointed pissed off angry.. but i cant help it.. coz it will nv feel that easy as i used to feel le.. the feeling of meeting up.. meeting each other during gathering.. it wasnt any more of joy n fun n laughter to mi le.. i dunno when it start.. but i noe wat is the cause.. but things just cant go back to last time le.. things change.. people change.. i change too.. i change to be alone.. i change n choose to be alone.. i guess i need the key to make mi open up ba.. i lost the key now n i'm lock myself in my own world..


afraid to be abandoned and forsaken again..

Distances does matter..

when one has crush on 2 persons.. the one was chosen wun feel anything.. the one that was not chosen will be disappoint n will feel hurt.. distance realli does matter.. you are just far away so u are in a disadvantage.. sorry i dunno how to console u or do anything to make u feel better.. but my dear friend.. i noe u will be alright soon de.. u are not alright now so dun always sae u are alright up.. ur friends are all around.. speak to us if needed.. u always console mi when i'm down but now.. i cant do much for u.. but cheer up k..


Distance does matter. Not everyone can go for long distance relationship. Can you..? if is you, i can..!

ok.. 2 assignment down.. still got 1 more assignment and 1 more report to go.. and will come my exams.. then go into holiday mode then graduation aft that.. =) haha.. that's so optimistic.. haha.. should think abt exams first lorz.. missing plenty n plenty of lectures le.. cant catch up.. haiz.. is my own fault..

hmmm.. you seem to disappear again.. guess the feeling of waiting to see the appearance of ur msg is weird ba.. the feeling of waiting.. hope you are doing fine.. having good health..


if you appear.. just treat it as a bonus..

added 2 new songs to my blog's song list.. heard them on the radio on 88.3JIA FM then got feel la.. so decide to add them in although they are not realli new songs.. 1st song i added is a chinese song title 相遇太早 by William Su Yong Kang. another song is Way Back Into Love by Hugh Grant Feat and Drew BarryMore from the movie "Music & Lyrics". both are nice songs.. ok.. is time to go back to update my log book le.. sian sian sian..

currently is actively looking for house for rent.. been looking always but nv realli see much also.. need to shift hse by July but preferly get a hse by june so that can settle internet n stuff coz in australia it takes weeks and months to get things done. trying to look for cheap hse but then rent for 2 person to share is quite high.. those cheaper de not near to school or to ziyang n yongsheng de hse.. those nearer de cost is higher n some even not furnish.. haiz.. dunno how sia.. still trying to look out but hope will get one soon.. coz exam coming also le.. wanna settle it fast n leaving for melb n sydney in july so got not much time ya.. n before july must shift le.. yes.. that's right.. must shift before july.. so no choice.. ok.. got to go update my log book le.. tml is the presentation.. i hate presentation..

wallet..? hmm..

i need to get a new wallet le.. my that roxy de coin part is gone.. there is a big big hole there.. maybe should invest on a good one.. maybe more expensive but can last longer.. but then the brand that come to my mind is Braun Buffel. but then here dun haf lehz.. should get those more lady-like the wallet ya.. haha.. but not Guess or watever.. dunno how to appreciate the pattern n colours.. i prefer all black or maybe just simple n nice will do.. should go ard n see le.. if not my wallets cant keep any coin le..

Continuing the photo time in previous entry..

Continue the photo uploading which i haf stop mayb weeks ago.. just submitted 1 report so got abit of rest time la.. so continue where i stop for the previous previous entry for photo..

D.I.Y Hair Stylish Salon @ Raven on 27th March 2008

me.. with curled hair.. dun look nice ba. quite a no. sae i look better with straight hair.


me and shijia but got 1 extra at the back!!


that's the result of the hair salon stuff that i brought over =)

Reiji Night (Clubbing) @ Cesars on 28th March 2008

me and bernard. went to club also to celebrate his birthday which is on 31th March.


James laopa wanna cover my face while ian gave that expression


James.Yenwei.Ian - take 1


James.Yenwei.Ian - take 2


me.ian.xiaoying



kena sabo. with those helpers behind n that evil smile with peace sign.


stupid yongsheng with his hand..! - take 1


Group photo @ the dance floor --- where is xiaoying n hairul..?


result of drinking + tiredness = gaying =x

PaintBall on 30th March 2008

on the coach on the way to paintball field.


gear up.


the gers


the guys


the whole batch of us.(but not everyone i noe de)


happened to get the number in sequence. 7 - 8 - 9


aft paintball war with the other groups too..

Bernard's 22nd Birthday Celebration @ Raven CC on 31st March 2008

when 1st enter --> take photo with birthday boi


Cold Rock Ice-cream cake. his favourites are all mixed inside


the gers with the birthday boi


the guys - looking nice....


and there they go..


group photo.. what's ian n yongsheng doing..? R21.. =x

Raven Wall Deco

that is 谦虚 - humble (is for some of the guys out there coz they dunno wat is humble)


this is 嚣张 - arrogant or we sae cocky.. coz nowsday.. ppl getting more n more arrogant =x haha.. the main person is Lim ZIyang =x coz he duno wat is humble.


and that's the 4 standards that the guys used to describe a ger. Chai = 1st Class/super pretty. Chei = 2nd Upper/not bad. Choi = 2nd lower/not realli that good. Chui = 3rd class/gone case =x

New Haircut/Hair style @ City Cut on 9th April 2008

that is before hair cut.


this is after hair cut


shorter. thinner.


is a good hair day someday aft my hair cut.

Yeow Kheong 23rd Birthday Present Preparation on 25th April 2008




KTV session @ Sunny Bank on 26th April 2008






Yeow Kheong 23rd Birthday @ Mitre Club on 26th April 2008




IRONMAN Movie @ South Bank + Dinner @ Westend on 4th May 2008




Farewell dinner for Yeow Kheong's sisters @ Salt & Batteries on 6th May 2008




Shu wen's 3D2N tour in City + St Lucia on 16th May 2008 - 18th May 2008



uploading the rest soon.. is reali too much le.. next time should upload asap if not like nv ending.. =x

MIND OVER BODY.

i'm dying soon.. super tired.. slpt at 4am yesterdae.. it seems that todae will also slp late.. haiz.. nv go for lectures todae.. realli too tired n cant get up.. realli need discipline.. i noe wat i need.. the attitude.. mind over body.. that's the training attitude when doing fitness or on court.. when feeling tired also must go over.. dun let the body control.. must use my mind.. but currently i'm having tis body over mind case.. hmm.. is time to change.. but is just too tired.. still got alot of assignment, reports to go.. haben even start any revision. haiz.. yenwei ah yenwei.. realli must jiayou le.. is time to make myself slp little le.. slping more oso like not enough.. got to be like last sem. slpt at 4+5am then wake up at 12pm to study.. yes.. that's the attitude.. motivation. discipline. attitude.



MOTIVATION. DISCIPLINE. ATTITUDE.



ok.. got to continue my report which is due tml but i'm onli 5% done.

went to slp at ard 3+4am.. was at ziyang they all de hse.. then suddenly all come back from clubbing drunk.. luckily i'm here then can take care of shu wen. ziyang they all de classmate.. was her birthday celebration.. then think that stupid ziyang make them drink. heard that ailing was also drunk.. luckily mi n yongsheng watch finish movie (21) then we come back le.. for mi is coz i need to do my presentation n report stuff. for that weakling yongsheng coz he is too tired le. wanna go home n slp. so.. at 4+5.. shijian and eric send ziyang back.. then shijian sae shuwen is drunk.. luckily i'm here la.. coz they all guys.. dunno how sia.. then left mi to take care of shu wen then yongsheng take care of ziyang.. ziyang vomit. then do stuns i should sae.. but nvm.. shouldnt sae anything coz is stupid n funni ba.. then shu wen toss n turn.. also drunk.. then after quite awhile then she vomit also.. now.. asleep le.. starting she turn n turn wanna roll down the bed le.. finally sleeping le.. mi starting wanna slp de then aft all tis. still feel refresh so decide to start abit on my tues submission de report =x haha.. if not tml cfm cant wake up early le.. todae is a tiring day.. should update when the photo is out.. still got alot of photo to upload.. not done yet but recently too busy le.. so got to wait ar.. heez.. ok. got to go do my report le.. starting to feel abit tired le..

finally i'm done with the poster.. but then haben discuss with my supervisor/lecturer = IAN GENTLE. yesterdae slpt at 4 am.. haiz.. the poster was still not finish yet.. today wanted to wake up early to finish it up de.. but then realli too tired le.. then todae wake up at 10am.. got to go for 11am de lectures.. then aft lesson at 12 start to do my poster presentation.. hopefully it will be ok ba.. realli very tedious and tiring lorz.. especially got to squeeze everything into the 1 slide which is 100cm x 70cm la.. i set that for my poster size.. but got to include alot of things in lorz.. but then i can onli sae it is not very well done ba.. is kind rush.. due to mi being so slack and not productive enough.. haiz.. ok.. now done with this poster presentation, it is time to start my nano prac de report which is due on 20th and my crystallography assignment due on 23rd.. ok.. got to get started and get going le.. too mani things to do le.. arghh.. nv manage my time well. but then got to sae.. tis sem realli too slack le.. skip alot of morning lectures due to not being able to wake up.. or should sae i'm not discipline enough.. i duno y but i recently realli need alot of slp and rest.. realli very tired.. but dunno y la =x haha.. this sem think the number of lectures i went and skip is about the same ba =x opps.. ok la.. is almost exam time le.. realli must start to chiong le.. just like wat yongsheng sae.. is my last sem le.. just endure awhile more.. just 1 more month and i'm done.. so must work hard this sem.. ok.. yes.. work hard work hard..

now still in school.. waiting for my supervisor to be free to talk to mi regarding my poster. he is busy now so just got to wait ba. is my fault though.. coz starting suppose to gif him on tues.. then drag. then tell him will send to him on wed or thurs.. i oso nv =x coz i haben finish yet.. now finish le.. but got to wait lorz. so now do abit of my nanomaterial prac report ba.. ok.. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU...

MOTIVATION. DISCIPLINE. ENDURANCE. yenwei 加油! 加油! 加油!

is almost 3am le.. still cant slp yet coz i'm not done with my poster presentation which i'm suppose to give to my lecturer 2 days ago.. haiz.. today die die also must finish it before i slp coz tml got to discuss.. haiz.. yesterday slpt at 4am.. today dunno at wat time le.. haiz.. ok.. got to continue le.. just wanna get myself out of the poster presentation awhile.. going crazy le.. haiz..

still doing my poster presentation. suppose to give to A/Prof Ian Gentle yesterdae de.. but i din manage to finish it so i ask him can i gif him either todae or tml de.. no matter wat must get it done by today then send to him le.. he not in sch until fri. so onli on fri then can discuss. somemore need to send it for poster printing.. duno will take how long sia. hope by wed it will be done coz presentation is on thurs.. yup yup.. ok.. it is time to do work le.. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU..!!!

忘了爱

忘了爱 - 范逸臣

分手都已过了那么久
现在也有自已的生活
你身边有个人牵着你的手
我们就像是朋友偶尔联络

心情不好你会来跟我说
我安慰你不难过
等你恢复笑容
总是笑着道谢转身走
变成朋友的你和我并不轻松

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
爱的重量不在我身上

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
过去不想全部隐藏
就试着遗忘

说
对我诉说你跟他满脸笑容
我微笑地聆听接受
过去的你和我是否也爱得那么冲动
痛哭好久开心也有让人感动

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
你还在我心上某一个地方
看着你为了他
失魂落魄不说一句话
但是我的心现在却比你还伤

i could see i love you
it hurts me deep in my heart
我不能像你这样说分了就忘
我这样是坚强
还是忘了爱的勉强
让你看透我的心现在我不想
是该说放就放
就试着遗忘

痛苦我会遗忘
只想看你开心的模样
新的恋情让它成长
而过去
就放在心上

why is it so difficult for mi to open up. yes. it is realli very difficult. i cant speak out wat i'm thinking, wat is in my mind. why i still feel so tired. even since that i feel life is so tiring. i hanging on for everyone else except myself. living for others. i cant speak up.. i feeling very tired with my life.. i'm living a day as a day but dunno for wat. why till now. it still take such a great impact in mi.. life isnt great and wonderful anymore to mi.. it is never. i need some light and colour in my life. why i still feel so miserable. i'm realli tired. even since that, laughter and joy were taken away.

wat do i want from myself, from my life. u ask mi that before. u gave mi the answer. i haf to follow that. but do u even noe. i need u in my life as much as i wan my studies and i wanna feel happie. but i noe i cant want u in my life coz u cant feel the happiness.

yenwei.. jiayou ar.. no matter how tough how sad, u got to hang on. as u promise others.. ur friends, urself and him.

weird weird feeling in the stomach..

skip todae de morning lesson again.. lesson at 9am but i wake up at 8.30am(or should sae i keep snooze-ing my alarm clock).. when i get ready already like 8.50 like that.. then dun feel like going.. coz my stomach just feel very weird.. wanna vomit.. then here comes the HEADACHE..!! arghh.. super super pek chek lorz.. haiz.. dunno wat is the problem with mi now.. imgrain come more and more often.. stomach or is it gastric.. i dunno.. haiz.. ok.. nvm.. went back to rest then wanted to wake up at 10.20 to go for 11am de lesson.. but i still didnt go coz i still dun feel well.. haiz.. then at 11.30.. i got up to go for the 12pm de lesson.. realli dun feel like goin to sch le but no choice.. i got my AFM (atomic force microscope) de session at 1pm.. so i die die also must go sch.. coz AFM need booking and i realli need result for my Introduction to Research de presentation and report.. so i must drag myself out of the bed.. eaten some cookies on the way to sch.. still feel the weird weird feeling.. nvm.. i got my WARHEADS de sour sweet.. so that can keep mi going for quite awhile.. haha.. that also can keep mi awhile in lesson coz as long as i got things in my mouth to bite, i will be awake =x heez.. ya.. but must mention.. luckily todae 9am de lecture cancelled coz the lecturer got the timetable wrong so i didnt miss the lesson.. must start going for all the lectures le.. been missing out the morning lectures.. got to be DISCIPLINE..!!

DISCIPLINE & MOTIVATION are wat i need noe..

ok.. now when i wanna work my sickening computer is giving mi problems.. i dunno wat wrong with it.. cant open the system file.. keep saying wat cannot find the environment variables.. argghhh.. it making mi piss off.. then the computer seems not to work well.. haiz.. damn damn damn.. so now wat.. just wait n wait.. wait til it KO..? piss off... getting super DULAN...!!! realli feel like scolding the F word le.. arghhh...

Uni Life suck..!!

being slping alot during the weekend.. body is realli very tired.. dunno why.. but noe cannot slp that much le.. everyone like starting their revision le.. ppl studying at home in sch.. but i'm slping at home.. tis isnt the right attitude ya.. should realli jiayou le.. time to get started for work le.. times dun seems to be enuff for all my due assignment, reports and presentation.. oMG.. realli slacked too much le.. ok.. got to go do some work le..

plan for the week..
1. Do the draft for Poster Presentation by monday (need to give to A/Prof Ian Gentle to see on tuesday)
2. Start my Nanomaterial practical de report le.. due on 20th May.. which is very soon..!!
3. Find journel on my NMR - scopoletin --> is wat i needed.. help mi with the research on this manx.. hope it wun take mi too long.. due on 30th may but i haben even started. is a report again.. haiz..
4. Continue on Prof Paul Bernhardt de crystal structure Determination which i been using the software WinGX but no progress for that.. haiz.. due on 23rd May.. realli need to chiong le..
5. Start my research report for my Introduction to Research which is the lab work which i have been working on for the past 9 week which taking up quite alot of my time.. due on 28th may but first of all got to get the Poster Presentation done and get over with it which is on 22nd may..

ok.. uni life is suck ya.. reports. assignments. presentations.. haiz.. suck.. ok.. got to get myself started le.. ok.. GO GO GO.. quoted from CS : Enemy spotted.. GO GO GO.. haha.. ok.. i realli got to go do work le...


sian.sian.sian.. i'm missing you. missing a part of my life which been left empty for months. and know it will be forever...

when i saw that message u type in the tagboard.. my tears just rolled down.. i cried, i'm sad. even though he isn't my grandfather but he is just like one to mi.. i thought he will recover i thought things will be fine.. but i'm wrong.. realli too much things happened to you but i just duno. i wanna help but i cant. i hope i'm ard but i'm not.. but i noe at least there is someone by ur side u need to lend u a shoulder to cry on or for u to lean on.. just cry out if u need k.. just lean on her as u wanted and needed k.. stay strong my dear fren.. i noe there is nothing i can do for u but onli stay here and wishing everything will be fine for u and u will be alright n fine.. take good care of urself.. please.. i feel the pain in the heart.. i noe u will feel more than i do.. i cant ask u dun be sad coz tis cant be possible.. i noe it need time to recover.. take care please..

爱情

爱情一定要用金钱、距离、陪伴彼此的时间来衡量吗？
难道爱就不能超越金钱、距离和时间吗？
那......还会是爱情吗？

IMGRAIN.. is painful..!

went for dinner at Salt & Batteries @ hawken which sell fish & chips la.. todae is like a farewell dinner for liwen and liping (yeow kheong sisters).. they were here for a couple of days and tml they are leaving le.. as usual.. dinner will haf chit chat session will haf talk cock session.. and will haf sabotage things to do.. ok.. will leave that for later case with photos ba..

after dinner reach home at 8+ 9pm open computer.. stare stare abit sleep =x opps.. haben bath yet too.. so at 11+12 am was waken up to go and bath.. and aft wake up awhile here come my headache.. super headache.. and is one side headache which is called IMGRAIN.. is damn painful la.. duno wat to do to reduce the painfulness on my head.. is on the left side.. is the 2nd time in australia le.. if not wrong it was at the left side at the 1st time too.. i do remember i do haf slight imgrain in singapore.. but i tot it was just headache and it wasnt that painful then.. haiz.. should i go and see doctor..? got use mehz..? wat can the doctor do here sia.. haiz.. i also dunno how.. just let the pain be there and hope it will slowly cease away.. it damn painful la.. i cant continue le.. wanna do work also cannot do.. haiz..

pray for good health please.. stop giving mi this kind of illness where i cant do anything.. stop imgrain. stop cramps. stop back ache. stop gastric. stop having the vomiting feeling. stop rashes. stop allergy(which i duno even noe is toward wat). just stop all tis 有的没的 illness and sickness.. i need to be fit, healthy, strong & fine.. no pillar to support me, no mountain for mi to lean le.. need to stand up on my own.. even sick also must be okay.. i think i realli need some 补品 soon.. brain not going to work.. body not working well.. haiz.. wake up.. time to wake them up le.. ok.. enuff craps.. i need rest.. no matter how i rest it seems to be not enuff for mi to recover..

IRONMAN

went to watch IRONMAN with our usual clique (10 of us) at South Bank.. Nice show.. is funni.. haha.. i was having cramps so actually is not feeling well.. and as usual.. i got my back ache too when i got my cramp.. so i feel very uncomfortable and painful in the sense of cramps and back pain.. haiz.. but then luckily the show able to divert my attention.. make mi laugh and make mi dun feel that painful.. took the panadol for menstration.. dunno is got use anot de la.. but i did feel better aft i took the medicine.. they haf Cold Rock (ICE-CREAM) aft movie but i didnt coz yongsheng ask mi dun do silly thing n ziyang was saying dun take cold stuff.. haiz.. so sad.. i wanna eat ice-cream.. ok.. nvm.. i can take that another day.. then went to West End and haf dinner.. brought the others to this vietnam chinese restaurant where that time when Terence family and with chuting and peixuan they bring mi there for dinner.. it wasnt very expensive and the food is quite nice.. somemore the beef noodle all tis not bad so intro to the others lorz coz they eat beef while mi n shijia dun eat.. aft that go to this place call THREE MONKEY to chill out.. the ice mocha is nice.. hehez.. then we chitchat till 11+ 12 like that then we left..



为什么又开始期待，到底在期待些什么？清醒点吧！
不要再期待，期待就是等待，不要再等待。

Examination Schedule is out..!!!

Examination schedule is out le

DATE TIME LOCATION COURSE
10/06 (Tue) 11.15am 69-110 CHEM3004
14/06 (Sat) 2.30pm 01-E109 CHEM3003
18/06 (Wed) 11.15am 27A-ExhHall CHEE4301

OMG... the dates are getting closer.. haiz.. is like left abt 1 more month nia.. but i dun haf the feeling that i haf been studying all this while.. die le la.. is realli time to start to do work n realli start studying before it is too late le.. been missing all the morning lectures due to mi for being not discipline enough to wake up early in the morning n slping late at nite.. which make myself super duper tired.. haiz.. got to realli start to study n read thru' lectures notes if possible.. ok.. time to discipline myself n set my target n get myself motivated.. my hand is realli burnt and chao-ta le.. sian sian sian... there goes my hand.. haiz..

I NEED MOTIVATION..!!!

BURNT..!!!! PAIN..!!!1

haiz.. i 'burn' myself.. todae dinner is pizza then it was on the metal grill la.. then wanna take the pizza totally forget the grill is hot coz the pizza wasnt that hot when it was put on the table on the grill.. haiz.. dunno is it call a serious burn.. from red line then it become grey line with the surrounding area red.. then now it become black that kind then is redish.. haiz.. pain pain..

todae went to indooroopilly for some "retail therapy" haha.. suppose to go to woolworths to get groceries la but then as usual we went to Jay Jays, Targets, Kmart etc.. then i saw s knitwear that is similar to my Zara de knitwear (brown) de.. but then this knitwear is from Jay Jays and is in brown n pink horizontal strips.. is V-neck too.. to mi is like for 'layering' la.. then when i wear my tank top or spagetti all tis then can wear that.. will feel warm.. then if still feel cold still can layer another jacket or trenchcoat over it =) heez.. is $29 la.. i bought it.. also saw another knitwear la.. is at Target.. is more expensive is $39.99 but feel it look nice lehz.. but then xiaoying sae not worth the price.. still can think abt it first ba.. so end up nv get that.. ya.. dun spend too much money also la.. got limited fund..

ok.. here is my photo for my burn hand =( haf apply ziyang pass de cream for burn.. hope this BURNAID cream could work sia.. dun leave marking pls..


like that see not clear


a clearer pic of my RED MARKING.. pain pain =(


a zoom-in pic.. *sob sob*


oh ya.. this is the white Adidas Pull-over which i mention early that i bought it coz i realli love it alot =) heez.. and weather is getting colder and colder.. like jacket not thick enough like that lorz.. cold cold cold.. i need some warmth.. haha..

and this is my laptop de wallpaper =)

nice nice rite.. that is my cute little white tiger.. got name de worz.. haha..